II
The depths of Stott were stirred that night. He had often said that “he wouldn’t stand it much longer,” but the words were a mere formula: he had never even weighed their intention. As he paced the Common, he muttered them again to the night, with new meaning; he saw new possibilities, and saw that they were practicable. “I’ve ’ad enough,” was his new phrase, and he added another that evidenced his new attitude. “Why not?” he said again and again. “And why not?”
Stott’s mind was not analytical. He did not examine his problem, weigh this and that and draw a balanced deduction. He merely saw a picture of peace and quiet, in a room at Ailesworth, in convenient proximity to his work (he made an admirable groundsman and umpire, his work absorbed him) and, perhaps, he conceived some dim ideal of pleasant evenings spent in the companionship of those who thought in the same terms as himself; whose speech was of form, averages, the preparation of wickets, and all the detail of cricket; who shared in his one interest.
Stott’s ambition to have a son and to teach him the mysteries of his father’s success had been dwindling for some time past. On this night it was finally put aside. Stott’s “I’ve ’ad enough” may be taken to include that frustrated ideal. No more experiments for him, was the pronouncement that summed up his decision.
Still there were difficulties. Economically he was free, he could allow his wife thirty shillings a week, more than enough for her support and that of her child; but—what would she say, how would she take his determination? A determination it was, not a proposal. And the neighbours, what would they say? Stott anticipated a fuss. “She’ll say I’ve married ’er, and it’s my duty to stay by ’er,” was his anticipation of his wife’s attitude. He did not profess to understand the ways of the sex, but some rumours of misunderstandings between husbands and wives of his own class had filtered through his absorption in cricket.
He stumbled home with a mind prepared for dissension.
He found his wife stitching by the fire. The door at the foot of the stairs was closed. The room presented an aspect of cleanly, cheerful comfort; but Stott entered with dread, not because he feared to meet his wife, but because there was a terror sleeping in that house.
His armchair was empty now, but he hesitated before he sat down in it. He took off his cap and rubbed the seat and back of the chair vigorously: a child of evil had polluted it, the chair might still hold enchantment....
“I’ve ’ad enough,” was his preface, and there was no need for any further explanation.
Ellen Mary let her hands fall into her lap, and stared dreamily at the fire.
“I’m sorry it’s come to this, George,” she said, “but it ’asn’t been my fault no more’n it’s been your’n. Of course I’ve seen it a-comin’, and I knowed it ’ad to be, some time; but I don’t think there need be any ’ard words over it. I don’t expec’ you to understand ’im, no more’n I do myself—it isn’t in nature as you should, but all said and done, there’s no bones broke, and if we ’ave to part, there’s no reason as we shouldn’t part peaceable.”
That speech said nearly everything. Afterwards it was only a question of making arrangements, and in that there was no difficulty.
Another man might have felt a little hurt, a little neglected by the absence of any show of feeling on his wife’s part, but Stott passed it by. He was singularly free from all sentimentality; certain primitive, human emotions seem to have played no part in his character. At this moment he certainly had no thought that he was being carelessly treated; he wanted to be free from the oppression of that horror upstairs—so he figured it—and the way was made easy for him.
He nodded approval, and made no sign of any feeling.
“I shall go to-morrer,” he said, and then, “I’ll sleep down ’ere to-night.” He indicated the sofa upon which he had slept for so many nights at Stoke, after his tragedy had been born to him.
Ellen Mary had said nearly everything, but when she had made up a bed for her husband in the sitting-room, she paused, candle in hand, before she bade him good-night.
“Don’t wish ’im ’arm, George,” she said. “’E’s different from us, and we don’t understand ’im proper, but some day——”
“I don’t wish ’im no ’arm,” replied Stott, and shuddered. “I don’t wish ’im no ’arm,” he repeated, as he kicked off the boot he had been unlacing.
“You mayn’t never see ’im again,” added Ellen Mary.
Stott stood upright. In his socks, he looked noticeably shorter than his wife. “I suppose not,” he said, and gave a deep sigh of relief. “Well, thank Gawd for that, anyway.”
Ellen Mary drew her lips together. For some dim, unrealised reason, she wished her husband to leave the cottage with a feeling of goodwill towards the child, but she saw that her wish was little likely to be fulfilled.
“Well, good-night, George,” she said, after a few seconds of silence, and she added pathetically, as she turned at the foot of the stairs: “Don’t wish ’im no harm.”
“I won’t,” was all the assurance she received.
When she had gone, and the door was closed behind her, Stott padded silently to the window and looked out. A young moon was dipping into a bank of cloud, and against the feeble brightness he could see an uncertain outline of bare trees. He pulled the curtain across the window, and turned back to the warm cheerfulness of the room.
“Shan’t never see ’im again,” he murmured, “thank Gawd!” He undressed quietly, blew out the lamp and got between the sheets of his improvised bed. For some minutes he stared at the leaping shadows on the ceiling. He was wondering why he had ever been afraid of the child. “After all, ’e’s only a blarsted freak,” was the last thought in his mind before he fell asleep.
With that pronouncement Stott passes out of the history of the Hampdenshire Wonder. He was in many ways an exceptional man, and his name will always be associated with the splendid successes of Hampdenshire cricket, both before and after the accident that destroyed his career as a bowler. He was not spoiled by his triumphs: those two years of celebrity never made Stott conceited, and there are undoubtedly many traits in his character which call for our admiration. He is still in his prime, an active agent in finding talent for his county, and in developing that talent when found. Hampdenshire has never come into the field with weak bowling, and all the credit belongs to Ginger Stott.
One sees that he was not able to appreciate the wonderful gifts of his own son, but Stott was an ignorant man, and men of intellectual attainment failed even as Stott failed in this respect. Ginger Stott was a success in his own walk of life, and that fact should command our admiration. It is not for us to judge whether his attainments were more or less noble than the attainments of his son.