XXIV
For a while the baggage master fussed about the car, sorting out packages for Ormond; then, courteously inquiring whether he could do anything for them, and learning that he could not, he went forward into his own den, leaving Marie Wiltz and George Z. Green alone in a baggage car dimly illumined by a small and smoky lamp.
Being well-bred young people, they broke the tension of the situation gracefully and naturally, pretending to find it amusing to travel in a milk train to a fashionable southern resort.
And now that the train was actually under way and speeding southward through the night, her relief from anxiety was very plain to him. He could see her relax; see the frightened and hunted look in her eyes die out, the natural and delicious colour return to her cheeks.
As they conversed with amiable circumspection and pleasant formality, he looked at her whenever[230] he dared without seeming to be impertinent; and he discovered that the face she had worn since he had first seen her was not her natural expression; that her features in repose or in fearless animation were winning and almost gay.
She had a delightful mouth, sweet and humourous; a delicate nose and chin, and two very blue and beautiful eyes that looked at him at moments so confidently, so engagingly, that the knowledge of what her expression would be if she knew who he was smote him at moments, chilling his very marrow.
What an astonishing situation! How he would have scorned a short story with such a situation in it! And he thought of Williams—poor old Williams!—and mentally begged his pardon.
For he understood now that real life was far stranger than fiction. He realised at last that Romance loitered ever around the corner; that Opportunity was always gently nudging one's elbow.
There lay his overcoat on the floor, trailing over her satchel. He looked at it so fixedly that she noticed the direction of his gaze, glanced down, blushed furiously.
"It may seem odd to you that I am travelling with a man's overcoat," she said, "but it will seem[231] odder yet when I tell you that I don't know how I came by it."
"That is odd," he admitted smilingly. "To whom does it belong?"
Her features betrayed the complicated emotions that successively possessed her—perplexity, anxiety, bashfulness.
After a moment she said in a low voice: "You have done so much for me already—you have been so exceedingly nice to me—that I hesitate to ask of you anything more——"
"Please ask!" he urged. "It will be really a happiness for me to serve you."
Surprised at his earnestness and the unembarrassed warmth of his reply, she looked up at him gratefully after a moment.
"Would you," she said, "take charge of that overcoat for me and send it back to its owner?"
He laughed nervously: "Is that all? Why, of course I shall! I'll guarantee that it is restored to its rightful owner if you wish."
"Will you? If you do that——" she drew a long, sighing breath, "it will be a relief to me—such a wonderful relief!" She clasped her gloved hands tightly on her knee, smiled at him breathlessly.
"I don't suppose you will ever know what you[232] have done for me. I could never adequately express my deep, deep gratitude to you——"
"But—I am doing nothing except shipping back an overcoat——"
"Ah—if you only knew what you really are doing for me! You are helping me in the direst hour of need I ever knew. You are aiding me to regain control over my own destiny! You are standing by me in the nick of time, sheltering me, encouraging me, giving me a moment's respite until I can become mistress of my own fate once more."
The girl had ended with a warmth, earnestness and emotion which she seemed to be unable to control. Evidently she had been very much shaken, and in the blessed relief from the strain the reaction was gathering intensity.
They sat in silence for a few moments; then she looked up, nervously twisting her gloved fingers.
"I am sorry," she said in a low voice, "not to exhibit reticence and proper self-control before a—a stranger.... But I—I have been—rather badly—frightened."
"Nothing need frighten you now," he said.
"I thought so, too. I thought that as soon as I left New York it would be all right. But—but[233] the first thing I saw in my stateroom was that overcoat! And the next thing that occurred was—was almost—stupefying. Until I boarded this milk-train, I think I must have been almost irresponsible from sheer fright."
"What frightened you?" he asked, trembling internally.
"I—I can't tell you. It would do no good. You could not help me."
"Yet you say I have already aided you."
"Yes.... That is true.... And you will send that overcoat back, won't you?"
"Yes," he said. "To remember it, I'd better put it on, I think."
The southern night had turned chilly, and he was glad to bundle into his own overcoat again.
"From where will you ship it?" she asked anxiously.
"From Ormond——"
"Please don't!"
"Why?"
"Because," she said desperately, "the owner of that coat might trace it to Ormond and—and come down there."
"Where is he?"
She paled and clasped her hands tighter:
"I—I thought—I had every reason to believe[234] that he was in New York. B-but he isn't. He is in St. Augustine!"
"You evidently don't wish to meet him."
"No—oh, no, I don't wish to meet him—ever!"
"Oh. Am I to understand that this—this fellow," he said fiercely, "is following you?"
"I don't know—oh, I really don't know," she said, her blue eyes wide with apprehension. "All I know is that I do not desire to see him—or to have him see me.... He must not see me; it must not be—it shall not be! I—it's a very terrible thing;—I don't know exactly what I'm—I'm fighting against—because it's—it's simply too dreadful——"
Emotion checked her, and for a moment she covered her eyes with her gloved hands, sitting in silence.
"Can't I help you?" he asked gently.
She dropped her hands and stared at him.
"I don't know. Do you think you could? It all seems so—like a bad dream. I'll have to tell you about it if you are to help me—won't I?"
"If you think it best," he said with an inward quiver.
"That's it. I don't know whether it is best to ask your advice. Yet, I don't know exactly what[235] else to do," she added in a bewildered way, passing one hand slowly over her eyes. "Shall I tell you?"
"Perhaps you'd better."
"I think I will!... I—I left New York in a panic at a few moments' notice. I thought I'd go to Ormond and hide there for a while, and then, if—if matters looked threatening, I could go to Miami and take a steamer for the West Indies, and from there—if necessary—I could go to Brazil——"
"But why?" he demanded, secretly terrified at his own question.
She looked at him blankly a moment: "Oh; I forgot. It—it all began without any warning; and instantly I began to run away."
"From what?"
"From—from the owner of that overcoat!"
"Who is he?"
"His name," she said resolutely, "is George Z. Green. And I am running away from him.... And I am afraid you'll think it very odd when I tell you that although I am running away from him I do not know him, and I have never seen him."
"Wh-what is the matter with him?" inquired Green, with a sickly attempt at smiling.[236]
"He wants to marry me!" she exclaimed indignantly. "That is what is the matter with him."
"Are you sure?" he asked, astounded.
"Perfectly. And the oddest thing of all is that I do not think he has ever seen me—or ever even heard of me."
"But how can——"
"I'll tell you. I must tell you now, anyway. It began the evening before I left New York. I—I live alone—with a companion—having no parents. I gave a dinner dance the evening before I—I ran away;—there was music, too; professional dancers;—a crystal-gazing fortune teller—and a lot of people—loads of them."
She drew a short, quick breath, and shook her pretty head.
"Everybody's been talking about the Princess Zimbamzim this winter. So I had her there.... She—she is uncanny—positively terrifying. A dozen women were scared almost ill when they came out of her curtained corner.
"And—and then she demanded me.... I had no belief in such things.... I went into that curtained corner, never for one moment dreaming that what she might say would matter anything to me.... In ten minutes she had me scared and trembling like a leaf.... I didn't want to stay;[237] I wanted to go. I—couldn't, somehow. My limbs were stiff—I couldn't control them—I couldn't get up! All my will power—was—was paralysed!"
The girl's colour had fled; she looked at Green with wide eyes dark with the memory of fear.
"She told me to come to her for an hour's crystal gazing the following afternoon. I—I didn't want to go. But I couldn't seem to keep away.
"Then a terrible thing happened. I—I looked into that crystal and I saw there—saw with my own eyes—myself being married to a—a perfectly strange man! I saw myself as clearly as in a looking glass;—but I could see only his back. He—he wore an overcoat—like that one I gave to you to send back. Think of it! Married to a man who was wearing an overcoat!
"And there was a clergyman who looked sleepy, and—and two strangers as witnesses—and there was I—I!—getting married to this man.... And the terrible thing about it was that I looked at him as though I—I l-loved him——"
Her emotions overcame her for a moment, but she swallowed desperately, lifted her head, and forced herself to continue:
"Then the Princess Zimbamzim began to laugh, very horridly: and I asked her, furiously, who that[238] man was. And she said: 'His name seems to be George Z. Green; he is a banker and broker; and he lives at 1008-1/2 Fifth Avenue.'
"'Am I marrying him?' I cried. 'Am I marrying a strange broker who wears an overcoat at the ceremony?'
"And she laughed her horrid laugh again and said: 'You certainly are, Miss Wiltz. You can not escape it. It is your destiny.'
"'When am I to do it?' I demanded, trembling with fright and indignation. And she told me that it was certain to occur within either three months or three days.... And—can you imagine my n-natural feelings of horror—and repugnance? Can you not now understand the panic that seized me—when there, all the time in the crystal, I could actually see myself doing what that dreadful woman prophesied?"
"I don't blame you for running," he said, stunned.
"I do not blame myself. I ran. I fled, distracted, from that terrible house! I left word for my maid to pack and follow me to Ormond. I caught the first train I could catch. For the next three months I propose to continue my flight if—if necessary. And I fear it will be necessary."[239]
"Finding his overcoat in your stateroom must have been a dreadful shock to you," he said, pityingly.
"Imagine! But when, not an hour ago, I saw his name on the register at the Hotel Royal Orchid—directly under my name!—can you—oh, can you imagine my utter terror?"
Her voice broke and she leaned up against the side of the car, so white, so quivering, so utterly demoralised by fear, that, alarmed, he took her trembling hands firmly in his.
"You mustn't give way," he said. "This won't do. You must show courage."
"How can I show courage when I'm f-frightened?"
"You must not be frightened, because—because I am going to stand by you. I am going to stand by you very firmly. I am going to see this matter through."
"Are you? It is so—so kind of you—so good—so generous.... Because it's uncanny enough to frighten even a man. You see we don't know what we're fighting. We're threatened by—by the occult! By unseen f-forces.... How could that man be in St. Augustine?"
He drew a long breath. "I am going to tell you something.... May I?"[240]
She turned in silence to look at him. Something in his eyes disturbed her, and he felt her little, gloved hands tighten spasmodically within his own.
"It isn't anything to frighten you," he said. "It may even relieve you. Shall I tell you?"
Her lips formed a voiceless word of consent.
"Then I'll tell you.... I know George Z. Green."
"W-what?"
"I know him very well. He is—is an exceedingly—er—nice fellow."
"But I don't care! I'm not going to marry him!... Am I? Do you think I am?"
And she fell a-trembling so violently that, alarmed, he drew her to his shoulder, soothing her like a child, explaining that in the twentieth century no girl was going to marry anybody against her will.
Like a child she cowered against him, her hands tightening within his. The car swayed and rattled on its clanging trucks; the feeble lamp glimmered.
"If I thought," she said, "that George Z. Green was destined to marry me under such outrageous and humiliating circumstances, I—I believe I would marry the first decent man I encountered[241]—merely to confound the Princess Zimbamzim—and every wicked crystal-gazer in the world! I—I simply hate them!"
He said: "Then you believe in them."
"How can I help it? Look at me! Look at me here, in full light—asking protection of you!... And I don't care! I—think I am becoming more angry than—than frightened. I think it is your kindness that has given me courage. Somehow, I feel safe with you. I am sure that I can rely on you; can't I?"
"Yes," he said miserably.
"I was very sure I could when I saw you sitting there on the platform before the milk-train came in.... I don't know how it was—I was not afraid to speak to you.... Something about you made me confident.... I said to myself, 'He is good! I know it!' And so I spoke to you."
Conscience was tearing him inwardly to shreds, as the fox tore the Spartan. How could he pose as the sort of man she believed him to be, and endure the self-contempt now almost overwhelming him?
"I—I'm not good," he blurted out, miserably.
She turned and looked at him seriously for a moment. Then, for the first time aware of his[242] arm encircling her, and her hands in his, she flushed brightly and freed herself, straightening up in her little wooden chair.
"You need not tell me that," she said. "I know you are good."
"As a m-matter of f-fact," he stammered. "I'm a scoundrel!"
"What?"
"I can't bear to have you know it—b-but I am!"
"How can you say that?—when you've been so perfectly sweet to me?" she exclaimed.
And after a moment's silence she laughed deliciously.
"Only to look at you is enough," she said, "for a girl to feel absolute confidence in you."
"Do you feel that?"
"I?... Yes.... Yes, I do. I would trust you without hesitation. I have trusted you, have I not? And after all, it is not so strange. You are the sort of man to whom I am accustomed. We are both of the same sort."
"No," he said gloomily, "I'm really a pariah."
"You! Why do you say such things, after you have been so—perfectly charming to a frightened girl?"[243]
"I'm a pariah," he repeated. "I'm a social outcast! I—I know it, now." And he leaned his head wearily on both palms.
The girl looked at him in consternation.
"Are you unhappy?" she asked.
"Wretched."
"Oh," she said softly, "I didn't know that.... I am so sorry.... And to think that you took all my troubles on your shoulders, too,—burdened with your own! I—I knew you were that kind of man," she added warmly.
He only shook his head, face buried in his hands.
"I am so sorry," she repeated gently. "Would it help you if you told me?"
He did not answer.
"Because," she said sweetly, "it would make me very happy if I could be of even the very slightest use to you!"
No response.
"Because you have been so kind."
No response.
"—And so p-pleasant and c-cordial and——"
No response.
She looked at the young fellow who sat there with head bowed in his hands; and her blue eyes grew wistful.[244]
"Are you in physical pain?"
"Mental," he said in a muffled voice.
"I am sorry. Don't you believe that I am?" she asked pitifully.
"You would not be sorry if you knew why I am suffering," he muttered.
"How can you say that?" she exclaimed warmly. "Do you think I am ungrateful? Do you think I am insensible to delicate and generous emotions? Do you suppose I could ever forget what you have done for me?"
"Suppose," he said in a muffled voice, "I turned out to be a—a villain?"
"You couldn't!"
"Suppose it were true that I am one?"
She said, with the warmth of total inexperience with villains, "What you have been to me is only what concerns me. You have been good, generous, noble! And I—like you."
"You must not like me."
"I do! I do like you! I shall continue to do so—always——"
"You can not!"
"What? Indeed I can! I like you very much. I defy you to prevent me!"
"I don't want to prevent you—but you mustn't do it."[245]
She sat silent for a moment. Then her lip trembled.
"Why may I not like you?" she asked unsteadily.
"I am not worth it."
He didn't know it, but he had given her the most fascinating answer that a man can give a young girl.
"If you are not worth it," she said tremulously, "you can become so."
"No, I never can."
"Why do you say that? No matter what a man has done—a young man—such as you—he can become worthy again of a girl's friendship—if he wishes to."
"I never could become worthy of yours."
"Why? What have you done? I don't care anyway. If you—if you want my—my friendship you can have it."
"No," he groaned, "I am sunk too low to even dream of it! You don't know—you don't know what you're saying. I am beyond the pale!"
He clutched his temples and shuddered. For a moment she gazed at him piteously, then her timid hand touched his arm.
"I can't bear to see you in despair," she faltered, "—you who have been so good to me.[246] Please don't be unhappy—because—I want you to be happy——"
"I can never be that."
"Why?"
"Because—I am in love!"
"What?"
"With a girl who—hates me."
"Oh," she said faintly. Then the surprise in her eyes faded vaguely into wistfulness, and into something almost tender as she gazed at his bowed head.
"Any girl," she said, scarcely knowing what she was saying, "who could not love such a man as you is an absolutely negligible quantity."
His hands fell from his face and he sat up.
"Could you?"
"What?" she said, not understanding.
"Could you do what—what I—mentioned just now?"
She looked curiously at him for a moment, not comprehending. Suddenly a rose flush stained her face.
"I don't think you mean to say that to me," she said quietly.
"Yes," he said, "I do mean to say it.... Because, since I first saw you, I have—have dared to—to be in love with you."[247]
"With me! We—you have not known me an hour!"
"I have known you three days."
"What?"
"I am George Z. Green!"[248]
