POVERTY
After I was clothed with the holy Habit abundant lights on religious perfection were granted me, chiefly regarding the vow of poverty. During my postulate I was pleased to have for my use, anything that was nice, and to find at my hand whatever was necessary. Jesus bore with this patiently, for He does not like to disclose all to the soul at once. He ordinarily gives His light little by little.
After Compline one evening I looked in vain for our lantern on the shelves appointed for them; it was the time of great silence, not possible therefore to ask for it back. I rightly supposed that a Sister believing she took her own had carried away ours; but must I spend a whole hour in the dark in consequence of this mistake? And just that evening I had intended doing much work. Without the interior light of grace I should assuredly have bewailed my loss, but with that light, instead of experiencing vexation I was happy in thinking that poverty consists in being deprived not only of things desirable, but of those also that are indispensable. And in the exterior darkness I found my soul illumined with divine light.
I was seized at this time with a genuine love for what was ugliest and least convenient, thus I was delighted when I saw the pretty little jug carried off from our cell, and received in its stead a large one, all chipped.
HIST. D’UNE AME, CH. VII
A novice expressed regret for having lent a pin which was very serviceable to her:
“Oh! how rich you are,” replied Thérèse, “you cannot be happy.”
COUNSELS AND REMINISCENCES
“Make haste and come down: for this day I must abide in thy house.”[51] Jesus tells us to come down; where, then, must we go?... At an earlier time the Jews asked Him: “Master, where dwellest Thou?”[52] And He said: “The foxes have holes, and the birds of the air nests; but the Son of Man hath not where to lay His head.”[53] Behold whereunto we must descend if we would serve as dwellings for Jesus: we must be so poor that we have not where to lay our head.
XIII LETTER TO HER SISTER CÉLINE