LOST LIGHTS

“Let’s not be sentimental!”

You said, oh dear delight!

Well, you held Heaven’s rental;

And who was I to fight?

“Cool friends, alert and laughing,

And blessed by Plato’s snow.

But other wine for quaffing,

Be sentimental? No!”

I took you at your own word.

—Fool while my life shall last!

And found the “friend” a stone word,

And knew the radiance past.

The comradeship by snatches,

The love that lit my days

Went out like burnt-out matches

Before your husband’s gaze.

He strokes you with caresses

Too sugared to be sweet,

And fatly pats your tresses,

And binds your swift-winged feet;

And you’ve no thirst to slake from

The gold of each new June.

Nor ever dare to break from

Your sticky-bright cocoon.

I could have held you cleaner,

And free as clouds are free,

And shared you with nought meaner

Than sun and stars and sea.

But I’d a sense of humor

—At least you told me so—

And pride beyond all rumor!

And so I let you go.

Life breaks us—that grows plainer.

And wit declines to gall

With none of us the gainer ...

It seems a shame—that’s all!

When truth about me nears you

You’d better shut your eyes.

And you—his sugar smears you.

And the air crawls with flies.