POSTSCRIPT.
Yesterday morning, while looking through, with a view to copying out, my Roman notes of the last eighteen years, I felt, with odd vividness, the various myselfs who suffered and hoped while writing them. And, even more, I felt the presence of the beloved ones who, unmentioned, not even alluded to, had been present in those various successive Romes of mine. All of them have changed; some are dead, others were never really living. But while I turned over my note-books, there they were back. Back with their feeling of then; back with their presence (in one case the presence of a distant companion, to whom I could show these things only in thought); their complete realisation, or their half explicit charm, their still unshattered promise. Of all these I find not a word, barely a name; nothing telling of them to others. Only to me, in these sites, impersonal and almost eternal, on these walls which have stood two thousand years and may stand two thousand more, and these hillsides and roads full of the world's legend—there appear, visible, distinct, the shadows cast by my own life; the forms and faces of those changed, gone, dead ones; and my own.
Florence, April, 1905.
TRANSCRIBER'S NOTE The edition from which this text was drawn is volume 4175 of the Tauchnitz Edition of British Authors, where it appeared together with Laurus Nobilis, also by Vernon Lee. The volume was published in 1910. | |
| turning out of great rag bag of purple and crimson and gold | turning out of a great rag bag of purple and crimson and gold |
| bégunie | béguine |
| comes home to theme, like the sting of the dust whirlpools | comes home to them, like the sting of the dust whirlpools |
| solemn, meaning full abstraction | solemn, meaningful abstraction |