"I looked for sunshine, yet there cometh rain;
My sweetest pleasure turneth into pain:
I would sink back to nothingness again.
"Beliefs are but perpetual ideas,
The gospel worketh only on my fears,
In bitterness and sorrow, void of tears;
"In one God I believe, eternally
Omnipotent and present, and that He
Rules Heaven and Hell, the earth, the sky, the sea.
"As carnal life by carnal love is given,
So life divine by love divine is proven,
Of which the fountain head is God in Heaven.
"That since each body is the fleshly home
Of something better, something not our own,
So God all faults but foulness will condone.
"For I believe impurity is sin
Against the Spirit life that dwells within
Creating Father and created men;
"That every soul is judged true and well
According to the light that on it fell:
No light, no judgment; strong light, Heaven or Hell.
"All this and more; Great Father, I have heard
Of Thy dear Son; my heart expectant stirred
To welcome Him, confessing I had erred.
"Nay, said humanity within me, nay,
I cannot grasp this mystery, so stay
Until I comprehend, and I obey:
"I would, yet cannot—herein lies my grief.
Thy Son spake comfort to the dying thief,
So speak to me and help mine unbelief."