“As af a ghost had need of legs! An’ I won’t be sittin’ there by the dure—”
“Git back to yer bed, Dil, an’ we won’t have no more sich capers in the dead o’ night, frightin’ folks out of their sinsis.”
She led Dil roughly back to her bed. Then for safe keeping she slipped the chair back just under the knob, and Dil was a prisoner in a black hole, a small improvement on that of Calcutta.
A whirlwind of passion swept over Dilsey Quinn—a pitiful, helpless passion. She could have screamed, she could have torn the bed-clothes to pieces, or stamped in that uncontrollable rage and disappointment. But she knew her mother would beat her, and she was too sore and helpless to be banged about.
Her mother would not let her bring Bess back to life if she knew. And she could not explain—there was nothing to be put in words. You just went and did it. Oh, it seemed as if something might have helped her, some great, strong power that made people rich and happy, and gave them so many lovely things. Bess was only such a little out of all the big world!
And now she would never, never come back. An awful, cold despair succeeded the passion. They could never go to heaven together. Bess was dead, just like Mrs. Bolan, like the people who died in the court. They would take her out and bury her. That was all!
An indescribable horror fell upon Dil. The horror of the solitude that comes of doubt and darkness, the ghost of that final solitude that seems watching at the gates of death. Bess had gone off, been swallowed up in it, and there was nothing, nothing!
The morning dawned at last. Dil, half-stifled with bad air, and racked with that fearful mental inquisition, collapsed. She seemed shrunken and old, as old as Mrs. Bolan. There was nothing more for her.
Bridget Malone was to stay. The two women had a cup of coffee together, then Mrs. Quinn went to see the ’Spensary doctor. When she came back they spread a sheet over the small table, and brought out the body of the dead child.
“Folks’ll be comin’ in to see it,” she said with some pride. “An’ she looks that swate no one need be ashamed of her! She’d been a purty girl but for the accidint, for that stopped her growin’. I’ve had a long siege wid her, the Lord knows! An’ now I must run up to Studdemyer’s an’ tell ’em of the sorrow an’ trouble, an’ mebbe I’ll get lave to do somethin’ to-morrow. But I’ll be back afore the men kim in.”