It brought a smile to her lips, but a letter from Barbara by the same post did more. It brought real joy to her heart.
"MY DEAREST JEAN,—I hope you will be pleased about Chris. I think they are well suited to each other, and Charlie is such a dear good unselfish fellow, that she will be certain to find him a good husband. I hope Mrs. Fergusson will approve. She has been so very kind to Chris in more ways than I can mention."
"And now, dear Jean, this is very private and confidential. You will like to know that I have been seeking to know the One you love and serve. I have been so filled with my own shortcomings, that I have had a miserable time of it, but the light has come at last, and I, like Christian, have dropped my burden at the Cross. Oh, Jean, why did I never do it before? Why have I wasted all these years in fruitless living? But I don't believe I should have been convinced of my need of it, if I had not gone to nurse you."
"I shall never forget the sight of you, parched with fever, nearly starved, without a friend, and yet murmuring with a smile, 'Underneath are the everlasting arms.'"
"I felt then the worth of those arms to sustain you at such a time."
"Write to me and help me, for I'm such a beginner, but I'm so happy. Even the future loss of Chris does not, cannot depress me. I am longing that she should experience it with me. Pray for her, and for me, that I may not bring discredit upon my Master's cause. Much love, dear."
"Your grateful friend,"
"BARBARA."
"Leslie," Jean said a little later, "do you know, I shall only take up my painting as a recreation in future. I want to finish my picture, but I feel now that nothing is worth absorbing one's whole time and thoughts but our Master's work. Barbara's letter inspires me. Why have I been so silent, so self-absorbed? I feel a longing desire to win every one into the kingdom. Is this just a wave of enthusiasm, or do you think I may be learning a little more in God's school?"
"My darling, it is only that you have been sent into another class. Thank God for it, and ask Him to deepen and strengthen every desire to work for Him. There are passive and active Christians. I dare not judge the former. Sickness, physical nervousness, and other causes may cripple their powers, but I would have every nerve and tissue of your being, tingling with life and activity. A healthy soul is like a healthy body, it suffers at once, if it does not exercise its functions. If we have good news to tell, it is only the devil himself who will keep our mouths shut."
Sunnie did not hear of the missionary scheme till Jean's Scotch visit came to an end, and she had returned to London.
Then she wrote a letter:—
"My DARLING COUSIN JEAN,—Cousin Leslie has been talking to me, and playing it all out on the piano. I cried at first, because I did want you to come and live close to us."
"But the poor heathen must be made happy, and they will love to hear Cousin Leslie play hymns and talk to them. And it's dreadful for grown-up people in the world to grow up and know everything else except about Jesus. I'm making up pictures in my head about you, when you go over the sea. You'll have a little house in the middle of cocoa-nut trees and bananas, and monkeys and parrots will be running about your garden, and little black children will be coming to your school, and you'll teach them the hymns we sing on Sunday, and they'll laugh and be glad."
"God will make me glad soon, so I'm trying hard not to cry. I shan't be a brave Margaret Gordon if I do, shall I? But I feel like I did in my dream, when you were holding Cousin Leslie's hand and running away from me."
"I think a missionary is a grander thing than a king or queen, for it's next best to being an angel. And if I grow up without going to heaven, I shall be a missionary, too."
"Your loving little"
"SUNNIE."
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It was the eve of Jean's wedding-day.
She was in the little house in Kensington that belonged to Mrs. Douglas, and the latter was with her. She had arrived in England three months before, for she had buried Colonel Douglas in the sunny south. She returned with a serene and peaceful face to take up her old life in London again.