She asked a great many more questions, but Mrs Vallance seemed determined to answer nothing but “yes” and “no.” It was very disappointing to know so much and yet so little, and it seemed impossible to wait patiently till she was older to hear more. At last Mrs Vallance forbade the subject:
“I don’t want you to talk of this any more now, Mary,” she said. “When the proper time comes, you shall hear all I have to tell; what I want you to remember is this: Whoever you are, and whatever sort of people you belong to, you cannot alter it; but you may have a great deal to do with what you are. We can all make our characters noble by goodness, however poor our stations are; but if we are proud and vain, and despise others, nothing can save us from becoming vulgar and low, even if we belong to very high rank indeed. That is all you have to think of.”
Excellent advice; but though Mary heard all the words, they did not sink into her mind any more than the water on the ducks’ backs in the river outside; they rolled off it at once, and only the wonderful, wonderful fact remained, that she was not Mary Vallance. Who was she, then? And, above all, what could Rice have meant by “brown as a berry?” Who was brown as a berry? Certainly not Mary herself; she was quite used to hearing that she was “as white as snow” and “as fair as a lily”—it was Agatha Chelwood who had a brown skin. Altogether it was very mysterious and deeply interesting; soon she began to make up long stories about herself, in which it was always discovered at last that she belonged to very rich people with grand titles. This was what people had meant when they whispered that she was “no common child.” Mary’s foolish head was in a whirl of excitement, and filled from morning to night with visions of grandeur. If the little clog could only have spoken! Mute, yet full of expression it stood there, while Mary dreamed in her little white bed of palaces and princesses.
“I was not made,” it would have said, “for foot of princess or lady, or to tread on soft carpets and take dainty steps; I am a hardworking shoe made by rough hands, though the heart they belonged to was kind and gentle; I have nothing to do with luxury and idleness.”
But no one understood this silent language. The clog was admired, and wondered at, and called “a quaint little shoe,” and its history remained unknown.
Mary longed now to tell Jackie her mighty secret, which began to weigh too heavily to keep to herself; but when he did come to the vicarage again, he was not nearly so much impressed by it as she had hoped. This was partly, perhaps, because his mind was full of a certain project which he wished her to join, and she had scarcely bound him by a solemn promise not to breathe a word to the other children of what she had told him, than he began eagerly:
“We’re going to spend the day at Maskells to-morrow—the whole day. Will Mrs Vallance let you go too?”
“Come and ask her,” said Mary; and Jackie, rather breathless, for he had run the whole way from the White House, proceeded with his request:
“The donkey-cart’s going,” he said, “and the three little ones, and Rice, and Fraülein, and all of us, and we’re going quite early because it’s so hot, and we shall stop to tea, and make a fire, of course, and mother hopes you’ll let Mary go.”
“Well, I can’t say no,” said Mrs Vallance, smiling at Jackie’s heated face; “but I’m not very fond of Maskells, there are so many dangerous places in it.”