I’ve got my seed in, glory be! The deed is done; the mad scramble is over. And Mother Earth, as tired as a child of being mauled, lies sleeping in the sun.
If, as some one has said, to plow is to pray, we’ve been doing a heap of mouth-worship on Alabama Ranch this last few weeks. But the final acre has been turned over, the final long sea of furrows disked and plank-dragged and seeded down, and after the heavy rains of Thursday night there’s just the faintest tinge of green, here and there, along my billiard-table of a granary-to-be.
But the mud is back, and to save my kitchen floor, last night, I trimmed down a worn-out broom, cut off most of the handle, and fastened it upside down in a hole I’d bored at one end of the lower door-step.
All this talk of mine about wheat sounds as though I were what they call out here a Soil Robber, or a Land Miner, a get-rich-quick squatter who doesn’t bother about mixed farming or the rotation of crops, with no true love for the land which he impoverishes and leaves behind him when he’s made his pile. I want to make my pile, it’s true, but we’ll soon have other things to think about. There’s my home garden to be made ready, and the cattle and pigs to be looked after, and a run to be built for my chickens. The latter, for all their neglect, have been laying like mad and I’ve three full crates of eggs in the cellar, all dipped in water-glass and ready for barter at Buckhorn. If the output keeps up I’ll store away five or six crates of the treated eggs for Christmas-season sale, for in midwinter they easily bring eighty cents a dozen.
And speaking of barter reminds me that both Dinkie and the Twins are growing out of their duds, and heaven knows when I’ll find time to make more for them. They’ll probably have to promenade around like Ikkie’s ancestors. I’ve even run out of safety-pins. And since the enduring necessity for the safety-pin is evidenced by the fact that it’s even found on the baby-mummies of ancient Egypt, and must be a good four thousand years old, I’ve had Whinnie supply me with some home-made ones, manufactured out of hair-pins.... My little Dinkie, I notice, is going to love animals. He seems especially fond of horses, and is fearless when beside them, or on them, or even under them—for he walked calmly in under the belly of Jail-Bird, who could have brained him with one pound of his wicked big hoof. But the beast seemed to know that it was a friend in that forbidden quarter, and never so much as moved until Dinkie had been rescued. It won’t be long now before Dinkie has a pinto of his own and will go bobbing off across the prairie-floor, I suppose, like a monkey on a circus-horse. Even now he likes nothing better than coming with his mother while she gathers her “clutch” of eggs. He can scramble into a manger—where my unruly hens persist in making an occasional nest—like a marmoset. The delight on his face at the discovery of even two or three “cackle-berries,” as Whinnie calls them, is worth the occasional breakage and yolk-stained rompers. For I share in that delight myself, since egg-gathering always gives me the feeling that I’m partaking of the bounty of Nature, that I’m getting something for next-to-nothing. It’s the same impulse, really, which drives city women to the bargain-counter and the auction-room, the sublimated passion to adorn the home teepee-pole with the fruits of their cunning!
Tuesday the Twenty-fifth
Yesterday I teamed in to Buckhorn, for supplies. And as I drove down the main street of that squalid little western town I must have looked like something the crows had been roosting on. But just as I was swinging out of Syd Woodward’s store-yard I caught sight of Lady Allie in her big new car, drawn up in front of the modestly denominated “New York Emporium.” What made me stare, however, was the unexpected vision of Duncan Argyll McKail, emerging from the aforesaid “Emporium” laden down with parcels. These he carried out to the car and was dutifully stowing away somewhere down in the back seat, when he happened to look up and catch sight of me as I swung by in my wagon-box. He turned a sort of dull brick-red, and pretended to be having a lot of trouble with getting those parcels where they ought to be. But he looked exactly like a groom. And he knew it. And he knew that I knew he knew it. And if he was miserable, which I hope he was, I’m pretty sure he wasn’t one-half so miserable as I was—and as I am. “Damn that woman!” I caught myself saying, out loud, after staring at my mottled old map in my dressing-table mirror.
I’ve been watching the sunset to-night, for a long time, and thinking about things. It was one of those quiet and beautiful prairie sunsets which now and then flood you with wonder, in spite of yourself, and give you an achey little feeling in the heart. It was a riot of orange and Roman gold fading out into pale green, with misty opal and pearl-dust along the nearer sky-line, then a big star or two, and then silence, the silence of utter peace and beauty. But it didn’t bring peace to my soul. I could remember watching just such a sunset with my lord and master beside me, and turning to say: “Don’t you sometimes feel, Lover, that you were simply made for joy and rapture in moments like this? Don’t you feel as though your body were a harp that could throb and sing with the happiness of life?”
And I remembered the way my Dunkie had lifted up my chin and kissed me.