Nov. 4. Still has to be catheterized. She sits up, staring, with expressionless face, but when asked how she felt she responded and said feebly: "I don't know how I feel or how I
look or how long I have been here or anything." (What is wrong?) "Oh, I only want to go to a convent the rest of my days." (Why?) "Oh, I have only said wrong things, I thought I would be better dead, I could not do anything right." Later she again began to stare.
Nov. 5. During the night she is said to have been restless and wanted to go to church. To-day she is found staring, but not resistive. When questioned she sometimes does not answer. She said to the physician, "I should have gone up to Heaven to you and not brought me down here." She called the physician "Uncle James." Again she said, "I want to go up to see Jim." Sometimes she looks indifferent, again somewhat bewildered.
Nov. 6. She eats better, catheterizing is no longer necessary. She is found lying in bed, rigid, staring, resistive, does not answer at first, later appears somewhat distressed, says "I want to go and see Jim." (Where?) "In Heaven." She gave the name of the place and of the physician, also the date.
Nov. 8. In the forenoon, after she had presented a rather immobile expression and had answered a few orientation questions correctly, she suddenly beckoned into space, then shook her fist in a threatening manner. When later asked about this, she said: "Jim was down there and I wanted to get him in." (And?) "You was up here first." (And?) "I thought we was going down down, up up—the boat— —you came in here for—to lock Jim out so we wouldn't let him in." Later she said, when asked whether anything worried her, "Yes, you are taking Jim's place."
Nov. 9. During the night she is reported to have varied between stiffness with mutism and a more relaxed state. Once, the nurse found her with tears, saying "I want to go down the hall to my sister—to the river," and a short time later with fright: "Is that my mother?" Again she said: "Oh dear, I wish this boat would stop—stop it—where are we going?" In the forenoon she was quiet and unresponsive. In the afternoon she said in a somewhat perplexed way, "We were in a ship and we were 'most drowned." (When was that?) "Day before yesterday it must have been"—Again she said in the same manner: "It was like water. I was going down. I could hear a lot of things." She claimed this happened "to-day." "I saw all the people in
here, it was all full of water," "I have been lying here a long time—do you remember the time I was under the ground and it seemed full of water and every one got drowned and a sharp thing struck me?" "I was out in a ship and I went down there in a coffin." When asked whether she had been frightened at such times, she said: "No, I didn't seem to be, I just lay there." She also said: "the water rushed in," and when asked why she put up her arms, she said, "I did it to save the ship."
Nov. 10. She is still fairly free. She said that when she was on the ship things looked changed, "the picture over there looked like a saint, the beds looked queer." (How do things look now?) "All right." (The picture too?) "The same as when I was going down into a dark hole." When asked later in the day where she was, she said, "In the Pope's house, Uncle Edward is it?" but after a short time she added, "It is Ward's Island, isn't it?"
Nov. 11. Inactive, inaccessible, but for the most part not rigid.
Nov. 14. Varies between mutism with resistance and more relaxed inactivity. To-day lies in a position repeatedly assumed by her, namely, on her stomach with head raised, resistive towards any interference, immobile face, totally inaccessible.