November 23: Has remained quiet, says she is Dr. M.'s wife. But when told she is not married, she agrees. Her attitude towards the doctor is not changed, but when the nurses talk to him, she has tried to prevent it.
December 6: Has remained quietly in bed, gazing about. Slow in motion. She has spoken of being Dr. M.'s wife, again President Wilson's wife, again "Vincent (brother) is the ruler of the world."
At interview says little, seems abstracted, answers briefly in low tone. (Does anything bother you?) "No." (Are you natural?) "Yes." (Who are you?) "C. H." (correct). (You said you were the President's wife?) "No." (Are you married?) "No." (You talked about the kingdom?) "I own the kingdom" (affectlessly). (Where is Vincent?) "Here." (Have you heard
him?) "Yes." (What did he say?) "Nothing." (Is he all right?) "Yes." (Where is your mother?) "Home." (Why don't you go home?) "I can't." (Why not?) "I can't." (Why not?) "The family tree is broken, the Cardinal." (What about him?) "Nothing." (Retrospectively she said later she thought her brother was a cardinal.)
December 8: When her mother visited her she said "It is about time you come—I thought you were dead." Has walked down the hall "looking" for her dead cousin. When asked if she wanted to see her brother, said, "Ain't he dead?"
December 12: Cries out in an affectless tone like a huckster, "Father MacN., take me to Heaven," repeating this over and over.
December 15: Quiet as a rule, then for a time at the door, pulling at it and with whining voice but affectlessly saying "Give me the key—I want to go to the river—you can't keep me from Heaven—it is either Heaven or the river, give me the keys, give me the keys, open the door," "The niggers are taking possession." To the physician to whom she had claimed to be married, often repeats "You don't belong to me, I don't belong to you." (What about the niggers?) "A band of niggers, that is all they are." (Are the nurses niggers?) "That is all they are." Asked about her people, she says "They are in Heaven." (Where are you?) "I am in Heaven" (without change of expression). Again, when asked where her people are, says "At home." Then she went willingly back to bed and was quiet. In the afternoon she again went to the door and tried to get out. When questioned, she said "I don't want to be an animal," "Everybody is making an animal of me" (pointing to an animal picture). Then again, while trying the door, repeats in the same affectless manner that she wants to go "to the river," "to the bottom of the river," "to Heaven to see my mother." This last was said in a whining tone, with some tears. She kept turning the knob, tried to get the keys, and struggled impulsively when prevented.
December 23: Though quiet on the whole, when a visitor came yesterday, she ran after this woman saying "I want my generations," and clung to her, and to-day at intervals keeps talking about wanting to see her generations but is often quiet. (Retrospectively she said she wanted to see all her ancestors from the beginning of time.)
December 27: Of late often talks affectlessly about wanting to die or wanting to go to Heaven, struggling impulsively to get medicine away from the nurses, asking for poison, trying to drink her own urine, or even the fluid in the bed pan after she had been given an enema, all evidently with suicidal intent.
December 28: Still constant, impulsive and apparently affectless attempts at suicide, tries to get medicine away from nurses, to get the fire extinguisher bottles, a bottle of ink, etc., struggling when prevented.