"You allude to your memory?"
"Yes."
"What effect does spying have upon you?"
"It seems to weaken me, body and mind. I was never so exhausted in my life as when I came back on the 24th."
"You had had a hard time, no doubt."
"But it was not merely a hard time; it was a peculiar time. I believe that for a short while I lost sight of the fact that I was a Union soldier."
"That only shows that you acted your part."
"The sudden changes are what I find so hard. To imagine myself a Confederate, and then in a moment to become a Federal, and in the next moment by effort become a rebel again, is revolutionary."
"Very likely."
"I'd prefer being in the ranks."