[285—to the Hon. Augusta Leigh.]
4, Bennet Street, St. James's, March 26th, 1813.
My Dearest Augusta,—I did not answer your letter, because I could not answer as I wished, but expected that every week would bring me some tidings that might enable me to reply better than by apologies. But Claughton has not, will not, and, I think, cannot pay his money, and though, luckily, it was stipulated that he should never have possession till the whole was paid, the estate is still on my hands, and your brother consequently not less embarrassed than ever. This is the truth, and is all the excuse I can offer for inability, but not unwillingness, to serve you.
I am going abroad again in June, but should wish to see you before my departure. You have perhaps heard that I have been fooling away my time with different "
regnantes
;" but what better can be expected from me? I have but one
relative
, and her I never see. I have no connections to domesticate with, and for marriage I have neither the talent nor the inclination. I cannot fortune-hunt, nor afford to marry without a fortune.