well
; if not, it must be given up. One word, one letter, to Cn. would put an end to it; but this I shall not do, at all events without acquainting you before hand; nor at all, provided I am able to go abroad again. But at all hazards, at all losses, on this last point I am as determined as I have been for the last six months, and you have always told me that you would endeavour to assist me in that intention. Every thing is ordered and ready now. Do not trifle with me, for I am in very solid serious earnest, and if utter ruin
were
, or
is
before me, on the one hand—and wealth at home on the other,—I have made my choice, and go I will.
If you wish to write, address a line before Saturday to Salthill Post Office; Maidenhead, I believe, but am not sure, is the Post town; but I shall not be in town till Wednesday next.
Believe me, yours ever,
BN.
P. S.—Let all the books go to Mr. Murray's immediately, and let the plate, linen, etc., which I find