“Dear Stefan,” she wrote, “I have only had one note from
you in six weeks, and am naturally anxious to know how you
are getting on. I am very well, and expect our baby about
the tenth of October. Elliston is beautiful; imagine, he is a
year old now! I think he will have your eyes. I am sorry
you are not getting on well with your work, but perhaps that
has changed by now. Dear, I had a letter from Miss Mason
this morning, and she writes of having seen you and Miss
Berber together at the opera. You didn't tell me she was in
Paris, and I can't help feeling it strange that you should not
have done so, and should leave me without news for so long.
I trust you, dear Stefan, and believe in our love in spite of the
difficulties we have had. And I think you did rightly to take
a holiday abroad. But you have been gone three months, and
I have heard so little. Am I wrong still to believe in our love?
Only six months ago we were so happy together. Do you wish
our marriage to come to an end? Please write me, dear, and
tell me what you really think, for, Stefan, I don't know how
I shall bear the suspense much longer. I'm trying to be brave,
dear—and I do believe still.
“Your
“Mary.”
Her hand was trembling as she finished writing. She longed to cry out, “For God's sake, come back to me, Stefan”—she longed to write of the wild ache at her heart—but she could not. She could not plead with him. If he did not feel the pain in her halting sentences it would be true that he no longer loved her. She sealed and stamped the letter. “I must still believe,” she kept repeating to herself. There was nothing to do but wait.
In the weeks that followed it seemed to Mary that her friends were more than ever kind to her. Not only did James Farraday continually send his car to take her driving, and Mrs. Farraday appear in the pony carriage, but not a day passed without McEwan, Jamie, the Havens, or other neighbors dropping in for a chat, or planning a walk, a luncheon, or a sail. Constance, too, immersed in work though she was, ran out several times in her car and spent the night. Mary was grateful—it made her waiting so much less hard—while her friends were with her the constant ache at her heart was drugged asleep. Knowing Wallace, she suspected his hand in this widespread activity, nor was she mistaken.
The day after the arrival of Miss Mason's letter McEwan had dropped in upon Constance in the evening, when he knew she would be resting after her strenuous day's work at headquarters. By way of a compliment on her gown he led the conversation round to Felicity Berber, and elicited the information that she was abroad.
“In Paris, perhaps?” he suggested.
“Now you mention it, I think they did say Paris when I was last in the shop.”
“Byrd is in Paris, you know,” said McEwan, meeting her eyes.
“Ah!” said Constance, and she stared at him, her lids narrowing. “I hadn't thought of that possibility.” She fingered her jade beads.
“I wonder if you ever write her?” he asked.
“I never write any one, my dear man, and, besides, what could I say?”