Claire thought for a moment, then she said:
“Yes, but he’s gone deeper than his code now. Don’t you think that perhaps a smash, even of something you value, makes you grow? I don’t know how to put it quite, but if you never did what you thought wrong, would you ever know how big right is? Besides, he hasn’t gone on doing it. Perhaps he did start wrong in getting to care, but that only makes it harder and finer, his stopping himself. Very few people, I think, but Winn could stop themselves, and nobody but Winn could ever care — so much.” Her voice broke, and she turned away her head.
“What,” said Miss Marley, rolling another cigarette, “are your plans?”
Miss Marley felt that she must give up first principles but she hoped that she might still be able to do something about plans.
“We are going to drive over the Maloja to Chiavenna,” said Claire; “Maurice has a party to go with. We shall start by the earlier post, and have lunch together at Vico-Soprano before he comes. And then when Maurice comes we shall say good-by; and then — and then, Miss Marley, I’ve been thinking — we mustn’t meet again! I haven’t told Winn yet, because he likes to talk as if we could, in places awfully far away and odd, with you to chaperon us. I think it helps him to talk like that but I don’t think now that we must ever meet again. You won’t blame him if I tell you something, will you?”
“No,” said Miss Marley; “after what you’ve said to me to-night I am not inclined to blame him.”
“Well,” said Claire, “I don’t think, if we were to meet again, he would let me go. We may manage this time, but not twice.”
“Are you sure,” asked Miss Marley, gently, “that you will manage this time?”
Claire raised her head and looked at Miss Marley.
“Aren’t you?” she said gravely. “I did feel very sure.”