‘Hush! You forget all about when I was up at my Lady’s, and all that. Oh! and how bad I behaved at church, and when I was so saucy to Master about the marbles; and so often I’ve not minded Mother. O Harold! and God judges one for everything!’
What a sad terrified voice it was!
‘Oh! don’t go on so, Alf! I can’t bear it! Why, we are but boys; and those things were so long ago! God will not be hard on little boys. He is merciful, don’t you know?’
‘But when I knew it was wrong, I did the worst I could!’ said Alfred. ‘Oh, if I could only begin all over again, now I do care! Only, Harold, Harold, you are well; you can be good now when there’s time.’
‘I’ll be ever so good if you’ll only get well,’ said Harold. ‘I wouldn’t have gone to that there place to-night; but ’tis so terribly dull, and one must do something.’
‘But in church-time, and on Sunday!’
‘Well, I’ll never do it again; but it was so sunshiny, and they were all making such fun, you see, and it did seem so stuffy, and so long and tiresome, I couldn’t help it, you see.’
Alfred did not think of asking how, if Harold could not help it this time, he could be sure of never doing so again. He was more inclined to dwell on himself, and went back to that one sentence, ‘God judges us for everything.’ Harold thought he meant it for him, and exclaimed,
‘Yes, yes, I know, but—oh, Alf, you shouldn’t frighten one so; I never meant no harm.’
‘I wasn’t thinking about that,’ sighed Alfred. ‘I was wishing I’d been a better lad; but I’ve been worse, and crosser, and more unkind, ever since I was ill. O Harold! what shall I do?’