‘The very reason she will leave them the more. I declare, Cilly,’ he added, half in jest, half in earnest, ‘the only security for you and Owen is in a double marriage. Perhaps she projects it. You fire up as if she had!’
‘If she had, do you think that I should go back?’ said Cilly, trying to answer lightly, though her cheeks were in a flame. ‘No, no, I am not going to let slip a chance of Paris.’
She stopped short, dismayed at having committed herself, and Horatia coming down, was told by acclamation that Cilly was going.
‘Of course she is,’ said forgiving and forgetting Rashe. ‘Little Cilly left behind, to serve for food to the Rouge Dragon? No, no! I should have no fun in life without her.’
Rashe forgot the past far more easily that Cilla could ever do. There was a certain guilty delight in writing—
‘My dear Honor,—Many thanks for your letter, and intended kindnesses. The scene must, however, be deferred, as my cousins mean to winter at Paris, and I can’t resist the chance of hooking a Marshal, or a Prince or two. Rashe’s strain was a great sell but we had capital fun, and shall hope for more success another season. I would send you my diary if it were written out fair. We go so soon that I can’t run up to London, so I hope no one will be disturbed on my account.
‘Your affectionate Cilly.’
No need to say how often Lucilla would have liked to have recalled that note for addition or diminution, how many misgivings she suffered on her peculiar mode of catching Robins, how frequent were her disgusts with her cousin, and how often she felt like a captive—the captive of her own self-will.
‘That’s right!’ said Horatia to Lolly. ‘I was mortally afraid she would stay at home to fall a prey to the incipient parson, but now he is choked off, and Calthorp is really in earnest, we shall have the dear little morsel doing well yet.’
CHAPTER X
O ye, who never knew the joys
Of friendship, satisfied with noise,
Fandango, ball, and rout,
Blush, when I tell you how a bird
A prison, with a friend, preferred,
To liberty without.—Cowper