That I shall not see!

I cannot bear to look at this divinely bent and gracious head:

When I was small I never quite believed that He was dead:

And at the Convent school I used to lie awake in bed

Thinking about His hands. It did not matter what they said,

He was alive to me, so hurt, so hurt! And most of all in Holy Week

When there was no one else to see

I used to think it would not hurt me too, so terribly,

If He had ever seemed to notice me

Or, if, for once, He would only speak.