“Certainly, Phyl, no one can say that you’re attractive to women. You’re too pretty.” He leaned over and kissed the end of her nose. There, perhaps that would calm her, he might still be able to do half an hour’s writing before the children came back from the beach. That was the only solution. Simplify, simplify life by burying yourself in some work of imagination—such as the Eastern Railway booklet. He smiled bitterly. Those were the only happy people, the artists—immersed in dreams like frogs in a pond, only their eyes bulging just above the surface. But how are you going to attain that blissful absorption? Dominate the ragings of biology by writing railroad folders? The whole universe turns contrary, he thought, to the one who wants to create. Time is against him, carnal distraction, the natural indolence of man. Yes, even God is against him: God, Who invented everything and is jealous of other creators. If Phyllis hadn’t been there, he would have fallen on his knees by the couch and told God what he thought of Him.
They heard someone coming downstairs. Phyllis rose.
“Come in, Mr. Martin! See the nice little den where George does his work.”
V
GEORGE is carving the meat. He always feels better at meal times. The trouble with me, he thinks, is that I take things too seriously. I dare say I haven’t any sense of humour. Let’s see if we can’t make a sort of fresh start from this moment.
The three little girls are brown and gay. Phyllis looks tired, but busily exhibits that staccato sprightliness that comes over her when there are guests. This Mr. Martin seems a silent fellow. The children stare at him, and seem to have some joke among themselves; Sylvia and Rose nudge each other and giggle. I always think it’s a mistake to let the two younger ones sit side by side. But Mr. Martin seems unaware of them: his eyes are fixed on Phyllis with a cheerful watchfulness. He’s a solemn bird, thinks George, but he has the good taste to admire Phyl. I hope he won’t overdo it, for her sake. She can’t stand much admiring: it goes to her head right away.
“Well,” Phyllis says, “this is really delightful. A distinguished guest is just what we needed to make the Picnic a success. Children, don’t kick the legs of the table.—Mr. Granville is so fond of artists, he employs such a lot of them in his business. Of course, I dare say your kind of work is quite different, but there must be a lot of painters who wouldn’t know what to do if it weren’t for the little advertising jobs that come along. We’re so happy to be in the country again. Of course we live very simply, but Mr. Granville can always work so well when he gets away from the office. I feel so sorry for the men who have to be in town all summer.”
George feels a violent impulse to contradict her, but masters it. Phyl, he says, ask Lizzie to bring a spoon for the gravy. She always forgets it.—Mr. Martin, I’ll tell you the kind of people we are, we never have a carving knife sharp enough to cut with.
“Well, George, it’s not our own carving knife. You see, Mr. Martin, we took this house furnished. It’s not like having our own things.”
Our own isn’t any better, George’s voice shouts angrily inside his head, but he manages to keep it from coming out.