“Yes, you do. You know that you have got an urge, don't you?”
“Yes—” rather unwillingly Aaron admitted it.
“Well then, what is it? Is it that you want to love, or to be obeyed?”
“A bit of both.”
“All right—a bit of both. And what are you looking for in love?—A woman whom you can love, and who will love you, out and out and all in all and happy ever after sort of thing?”
“That's what I started out for, perhaps,” laughed Aaron.
“And now you know it's all my eye!” Aaron looked at Lilly, unwilling to admit it. Lilly began to laugh.
“You know it well enough,” he said. “It's one of your lost illusions, my boy. Well, then, what next? Is it a God you're after? Do you want a God you can strive to and attain, through love, and live happy ever after, countless millions of eternities, immortality and all that? Is this your little dodge?”
Again Aaron looked at Lilly with that odd double look of mockery and unwillingness to give himself away.
“All right then. You've got a love-urge that urges you to God; have you? Then go and join the Buddhists in Burmah, or the newest fangled Christians in Europe. Go and stick your head in a bush of Nirvana or spiritual perfection. Trot off.”