233 Clarendon Street,
Boston, December 9, 1889.My dear Miss Larcom,—I have never been a Yankee girl, and yet I felt that I recognized every picture in what I read, and I have read it all.
To hear of the American First Class Book again was like a breeze out of my childhood!
And I hope all the girls are reading it, and catching the flavor of its healthy spirit.
At any rate, I thank you for it, and I am yours most sincerely,
Phillips Brooks.
CHAPTER XI.
MEMBERSHIP IN THE EPISCOPAL CHURCH.
The longing for a religious home asserted itself in Miss Larcom’s life, and the thought came to her that she was not testifying to her deep love for her Master, by withholding herself from active membership in some Church of Christ. In her diary, where she wrote with great freedom her inmost feelings, there are passages which indicate discontent with her negative position. She was being forced to a conclusion:—
“I must decide for myself whether the Church is a reality to me; whether, in the visible Church, working for it, and with it, I can be more useful than I should be, floating on still, trying to accommodate myself to circumstances, and to harmonize myself with the best in everything, without any special ties. Having lived outside the Church so long, I have a great longing for a closer sympathy and working together with others. But whether it can be with my old Congregational friends, I am not certain. It would be better to stay with them, identified with their name and work, if I can do it from my heart, but not if I am called upon to say anything that I do not believe.”
While in this state of uncertainty, the Church was gradually making its way into her life. She looked forward to each Sunday, with eagerness; and the message from the day’s sermon she either put in her diary, or conveyed, by means of letters, to her little crippled friend, Elsie L——.
The Church-Year, with its sacred anniversaries, became very dear to her. In her diary, there is a record referring to Passion Week, that shows her appreciation of these Church days: “I think it most beautiful to keep these memorial days of the Church, whether we belong to the Episcopal Church or any other. These are the days for all Christians to observe.”