We looked at each other with the friendliness that has become the stronger by a mended break—for broken hearts and broken lives and broken friendships are much the stronger if the break mends. Said he:
“One way of measuring the strength of a man is the length of the intervals between the times when he makes a fool of himself about a woman. My first came at eighteen, my next at thirty-eight. Not a bad showing, I flatter myself—eh?”
“Uncommonly good,” said I.
“And the second shall be the last.”
“Optimism!” I warned him laughingly. “Beware of optimism!”
“No. I shall write about women, but I’ll see no more of them. I’ve got hold of myself again. I’m as good as ever—better than ever, probably. But—it cost! And I’ll not pay that price again. For a while I thought it was you who had upset my happiness. Then—” He gave a loud, unnatural laugh—“That German purchase! I saw she had been simply playing with me. You know how fond women of that sort are of playing with romantic or sentimental ideas. But when it came to the test—why, she would have married only a fortune or a title.”
I made no comment. He was saying only what I thought, what I believed true. But I hated to hear it.
“I may wrong her,” pursued he reflectively. “Not altogether, but to a certain extent. I rather think the impulse to something saner and less vulgar was there—actually there.”
As he was looking at me inquiringly I said: “I think so.”
“But—nothing came of it. And there’s little in these fine impulses of which nothing comes.”