"Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?"
And suddenly, turning to Dio, said with a perfect understanding of what he was saying:
"Oh, if I only knew who I am, I should be saved!"
He often had visions of his mother Tiy, of his wife, Nefertiti, of his daughter, Maki, and spoke to them as though they were living.
He had a vision of Shiha, the eunuch, too: standing by his side on the top of a pyramid, he heard the laughter of innumerable crowds down below, saw the face of Aton the Sun red with laughter in the sky and covering his face with his hands repeated:
"Shame! Shame! Shame!"
But when a flash of consciousness lighted the darkness of his clouded mind, he was wise once more—wiser than he had ever been.
At first Dio rejoiced at these lucid intervals, but she came to fear them: after them the darkness was even more terrible; he suffered acutely each time that madness closed in upon him.
"My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me!" he cried out one day, repeating an old Babylonian psalm.
And suddenly Dio felt in a way she had never done before that it was He Himself, the Son Who was to come. She was terrified at the thought, but the memory of it remained in her soul like a trace of lightning.