"Because," he said slowly, "there is a shadow which dogs me. I am always trying to escape—and it is always hard on my heels. You are a woman, Catherine, and you don't know the suffering of the most intolerable form of ennui—loneliness."
"And do you?" she asked, looking at him with softening eyes.
"Always. It rode with me in the turnkey frill—and sometimes perhaps it lifted my spurs—why not? And at these suppers you speak of, well, they are all very gay—it is I only who have bidden them, who reap no profit. For whosoever may sit there the chair at my side is always empty."
"You speak sadly," she said, "and yet—"
"Yet what?"
"To hear you talk, Arranmore, with any real feeling about anything is always a relief," she said. "Sometimes you speak and act as though every emotion which had ever filled your life were dead, as though you were indeed but the shadow of your former self. Even to know that you feel pain is better than to believe you void of any feeling whatever."
"Then you may rest content," he told her quietly, "for I can assure you that pain and I are old friends and close companions."
"You have so much, too, which should make you happy—which should keep you employed and amused," she said, softly.
"'Employed and amused.'" His eyes flashed upon her with a gleam of something very much like anger. "It pleases you to mock me!"
"Indeed no!" she protested. "You must not say such things to me."