"Who is going into Parliament?" he asked. "Somebody told me, but I forget. He was a friend of mine. I remember that much."
"Ray hopes to get in. I am going to help him, if I can."
"It is a great responsibility. Tell him, if he is elected, to fight for the natural child. It would well become him to do so. Let him rise to it. Our Saviour said, 'Suffer the little children to come unto Me.' The State, on the contrary, says, 'Suffer the little children to be done to death and put out of the way.'"
"Yes," she answered, "suffer fifty thousand little children to be lost every year, because it is kinder to let them perish, than help them to live under the wicked laws we have planned to govern them."
But his mind collapsed and when she strove to bring it back again, she could not.
Two days before he died, Estelle found him in deep distress. He begged to see her alone, and explained that he had to confess a great sin.
"I ought to tell a priest," he said, "but I dare think that you will do as well. If you absolve me, I shall know I may hope to be forgiven. I have lived a double life, Estelle. I have pretended what was not true—not merely once or twice, but systematically, deliberately, callously."
"I don't believe it, dear Mister Churchouse. You couldn't."
"I should never have believed it myself. But even the old can surprise themselves, painfully sometimes. I have lived with this perfidy for many years; but I can't die with it. There's always an inclination to confess our sins to a fellow creature. To confess them to our Maker is quite needless, because He knows them; but it's a quality of human nature to feel better after imparting its errors to another ear."
He broke off.