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I. Fair Amy of the terraced house, Assist me to discover Why you who would not hurt a mouse Can torture so your lover. II. You give your coffee to the cat, You stroke the dog for coming, And all your face grows kinder at The little brown bee’s humming. III. But when he haunts your door ... the town Marks coming and marks going ... You seem to have stitched your eyelids down To that long piece of sewing! 281 IV. You never give a look, not you, Nor drop him a “Good morning,” To keep his long day warm and blue, So fretted by your scorning. V. She shook her head—“The mouse and bee For crumb or flower will linger: The dog is happy at my knee, The cat purrs at my finger. VI. “But he ... to him, the least thing given Means great things at a distance; He wants my world, my sun, my heaven, Soul, body, whole existence. VII. “They say love gives as well as takes; But I’m a simple maiden,— My mother’s first smile when she wakes I still have smiled and prayed in. 282 VIII. “I only know my mother’s love Which gives all and asks nothing; And this new loving sets the groove Too much the way of loathing. IX. “Unless he gives me all in change, I forfeit all things by him: The risk is terrible and strange— I tremble, doubt, ... deny him. X. “He’s sweetest friend or hardest foe, Best angel or worst devil; I either hate or ... love him so, I can’t be merely civil! XI. “You trust a woman who puts forth Her blossoms thick as summer’s? You think she dreams what love is worth, Who casts it to new-comers? 283 XII. “Such love’s a cowslip-ball to fling, A moment’s pretty pastime; I give ... all me, if anything, The first time and the last time. XIII. “Dear neighbour of the trellised house, A man should murmur never, Though treated worse than dog and mouse, Till doated on for ever!”

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I. Enough! we’re tired, my heart and I. We sit beside the headstone thus, And wish that name were carved for us. The moss reprints more tenderly The hard types of the mason’s knife, As heaven’s sweet life renews earth’s life With which we’re tired, my heart and I. II. You see we’re tired, my heart and I. We dealt with books, we trusted men, And in our own blood drenched the pen, As if such colours could not fly. We walked too straight for fortune’s end, We loved too true to keep a friend; At last we’re tired, my heart and I. 285 III. How tired we feel, my heart and I! We seem of no use in the world; Our fancies hang grey and uncurled About men’s eyes indifferently; Our voice which thrilled you so, will let You sleep; our tears are only wet: What do we here, my heart and I? IV. So tired, so tired, my heart and I! It was not thus in that old time When Ralph sat with me ’neath the lime To watch the sunset from the sky. “Dear love, you’re looking tired,” he said; I, smiling at him, shook my head: ’T is now we’re tired, my heart and I. V. So tired, so tired, my heart and I! Though now none takes me on his arm To fold me close and kiss me warm Till each quick breath end in a sigh Of happy languor. Now, alone, We lean upon this graveyard stone, Uncheered, unkissed, my heart and I. 286 VI. Tired out we are, my heart and I. Suppose the world brought diadems To tempt us, crusted with loose gems Of powers and pleasures? Let it try. We scarcely care to look at even A pretty child, or God’s blue heaven, We feel so tired, my heart and I. VII. Yet who complains? My heart and I? In this abundant earth no doubt Is little room for things worn out: Disdain them, break them, throw them by! And if before the days grew rough We once were loved, used,—well enough, I think, we’ve fared, my heart and I.

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