“It does beat all about your ma,” said her father. “I can’t see where she gits that pain from. It ain’t nothin’ danger’s or it ’u’d a-killed her long ago. It almost seems ’s if she jests gits tired o’ bein’ well, an’ begins to git scared fer fear that pain’s a-comin’ on—an’ then it comes right on. I’ve heard her say lots o’ times that she’d been well a whole week now, but that she w’u’dn’t brag or that pain ’u’d come on—an’ inside of an hour it ’ud up an’ come on. It’s awful discouragin’.”
“I wish I was dead!” said Demaris.
Her father did not speak. His silence reproached her more than any words could have done.
When she went into the bedroom again she found her mother crying childishly.
“Demaris, did I hear you say you wished you was dead?”
“I guess so. I said it.”
“Well, God Almighty knows I wish I was! You don’t stop to think what ’u’d become o’ me ’f it wa’n’t fer you. Your pa c’u’dn’t hire anybody, an’ he’s gittin’ too old to set up o’ nights after workin’ hard all day. You’d like to see ’t all come on your little sister, I reckon.”
Demaris thought of those slim, weak wrists, and shivered. Her mother commenced to sob—and that aggravated the pain.
Demaris stooped and put her arms around her and kissed her.
“I’m sorry I said it,” she whispered. “I didn’t mean it. I’m just tired an’ cross. You know I didn’t mean it.”