“But why fret and worry?” she said, answering, rather, the objections of her own mind than addressing herself to M. de Tregars. “Things are just as they are, and I cannot undo them.
“Ah! if the mistakes of life were like soiled clothes, which are allowed to accumulate in a wardrobe, and which are all sent out at once to the wash. But nothing washes the past, not even repentance, whatever they may say. There are some ideas which should be set aside. A prisoner should not allow himself to think of freedom.
“And yet,” she added, shrugging her shoulders, “a prisoner has always the hope of escaping; whereas I—” Then, making a visible effort to resume her usual manner,
“Bash!” she said, “that’s enough sentiment for one day; and instead of staying here, boring you to death, I ought to go and dress; for I am going to the opera with my sweet mamma, and afterwards to the ball. You ought to come. I am going to wear a stunning dress. The ball is at Mme. de Bois d’Ardon’s,—one of our friends, a progressive woman. She has a smoking-room for ladies. What do you think of that? Come, will you go? We’ll drink champagne, and we’ll laugh. No? Zut then, and my compliments to your family.”
But, at the moment of leaving the room, her heart failed her.
“This is doubtless the last time I shall ever see you, M. de Tregars,” she said. “Farewell! You know now why I, who have a dowry of a million, I envy Gilberte Favoral. Once more farewell. And, whatever happiness may fall to your lot in life, remember that Cesarine has wished it all to you.”
And she went out at the very moment when the Baroness de Thaller returned.
VII
“Cesarine!” Mme. de Thaller called, in a voice which sounded at once like a prayer and a threat.
“I am going to dress myself, mamma,” she answered.