“In the second place, you can’t want to marry your little niecelet, the funny little ‘kiddo,’ that used to burn her fingers and the beefsteak over that old studio gas stove. We had such lovely kinds of make-believe together. That’s what our association always ought to mean to us,—just chumship, and wonderful and preposterous pretends. I couldn’t think of myself being married to you any more than I could Jack the giant killer, or Robinson Crusoe. You’re my truly best and dearest childhood’s playmate, and that is a great deal to be, Uncle Jimmie. I don’t think a little girl ever grows up quite whole unless she has somewhere, somehow, what I had in you. You wouldn’t want to marry Alice in Wonderland, now would you? There are some kinds of playmates that can’t marry each other. I think that you and I are that kind, Uncle Jimmie.
“My dear, my dear, don’t let this hurt you. How can it hurt you, when I am only your little adopted foster child that you have helped support and comfort and make a beautiful, glad life for? I love you so much,—you are so precious to me that you must wake up out of this distorted, though lovely dream that I was present at! 263
“We must all be happy. Nobody can break our hearts if we are strong enough to withhold them. Nobody can hurt us too much if we can find the way to be our bravest all the time. I know that what you are feeling now is not real. I can’t tell you how I know, but I do know the difference. The roots are not deep enough. They could be pulled up without too terrible a havoc.
“Uncle Jimmie, dear, believe me, believe me. I said this would be a hard letter to write, and it has been. If you could see my poor inkstained, weeping face, you would realize that I am only your funny little Eleanor after all, and not to be taken seriously at all. I hope you will come up for my graduation. When you see me with all the other lumps and frumps that are here, you will know that I am not worth considering except as a kind of human joke.
“Good-by, dear, my dear, and God bless you.
“Eleanor.”
It was less than a week after this letter to Jimmie that Margaret spending a week-end in a town in Connecticut adjoining that in which Eleanor’s school was located, telephoned Eleanor to join her 264 overnight at the inn where she was staying. She had really planned the entire expedition for the purpose of seeing Eleanor and preparing her for the revelations that were in store for her, though she was ostensibly meeting a motoring party, with which she was going on into the Berkshires.
She started in abruptly, as was her way, over the salad and cheese in the low studded Arts and Crafts dining-room of the fashionable road house, contrived to look as self-conscious as a pretty woman in new sporting clothes.
“Your Uncle David and your Uncle Jimmie are going to be married,” she told her. “Did you know it, Eleanor?”