“Well, try to remember,” Beulah said. She was thinking of the case in a book of psychology that she had been reading that morning, of a girl who was “pale and sleepy looking, expressionless of face, careless of her personal appearance,” who after an operation for adenoids, had become “as animated and bright as before she had been lethargic and dull.” She was pleased to see that Eleanor’s fine hair had been scrupulously combed, and neatly braided this morning, not being able to realize—as how should she?—that the condition of Eleanor’s fine spun locks 33 on her arrival the night before, had been attributable to the fact that the O’Farrel baby had stolen her comb, and Eleanor had been too shy to mention the fact, and had combed her hair mermaid-wise, through her fingers.
“This morning,” Beulah began brightly, “I am going to turn you loose in the apartment, and let you do what you like. I want to get an idea of the things you do like, you know. You can sew, or read, or drum on the piano, or talk to me, anything that pleases you most. I want you to be happy, that’s all, and to enjoy yourself in your own way.”
“Give the child absolute freedom in which to demonstrate the worth and value of its ego,”—that was what she was doing, “keeping it carefully under observation while you determine the individual trend along which to guide its development.”
The little girl looked about her helplessly. The room was very large and bright. The walls were white, and so was the woodwork, the mantle, and some of the furniture. Gay figured curtains hung at the windows, and there were little stools, and chairs, and even trays with glass over them, covered with the same bright colored material. Eleanor had never seen a room anything like it. There was no 34 center-table, no crayon portraits of different members of the family, no easels, or scarves thrown over the corners of the pictures. There were not many pictures, and those that there were didn’t seem to Eleanor like pictures at all, they were all so blurry and smudgy,—excepting one of a beautiful lady. She would have liked to have asked the name of that lady,—but her Aunt Beulah’s eyes were upon her. She slipped down from her chair and walked across the room to the window.
“Well, dear, what would make this the happiest day you can think of?” Beulah asked, in the tone she was given to use when she asked Gertrude and Margaret and Jimmie—but not often Peter—what they expected to do with their lives.
Eleanor turned a desperate face from the window, from the row of bland elegant apartment buildings she had been contemplating with unseeing eyes.
“Do I have to?” she asked Beulah piteously.
“Have to what?”
“Have to amuse myself in my own way? I don’t know what you want me to do. I don’t know what you think that I ought to do.”
A strong-minded and spoiled younger daughter 35 of a widowed mother—whose chief anxiety had been to anticipate the wants of her children before they were expressed—with an independent income, and a beloved and admiring circle of intimate friends, is not likely to be imaginatively equipped to explore the spiritual fastnesses of a sensitive and alien orphan. Beulah tried earnestly to get some perspective on the child’s point of view, but she could not. The fact that she was torturing the child would have been outside of the limits of her comprehension. She searched her mind for some immediate application of the methods of Madame Montessori, and produced a lump of modeling clay.