“I bet there’s a rumpus,” Alf agreed. “Old Jen’s not one to take a blow. She ups and gets in the first one.” He couldn’t help admiring Jenny, even yet. So he hastened to pretend that he did not admire her; out of a kind of tact. “But of course ... that’s all very well for a bit of sport, but it gets a bit wearisome after a time. I know what you mean....”
“Don’t think I’ve been complaining about her,” Emmy said. “I wouldn’t. Really, I wouldn’t. Only I do think sometimes it’s not quite fair that she should have all the fun, and me none of it. I don’t want a lot. My tastes are very simple. But when it comes to none at all—well, Alf, what do you think?”
“It’s a bit thick,” admitted Alf. “And that’s a fact.”
“See, she’s always having her own way. Does just what she likes. There’s no holding her.”
“Wants a man to do that,” ruminated Alf, with a half chuckle. “Eh?”
“Well,” said Emmy, a little brusquely. “I pity the man who tries it on.”
vii
Emmy was not deliberately trying to secure from Alf a proposal of marriage. She was trying to show him the contrast between Jenny and herself, and to readjust the balances as he appeared to have been holding them. She wanted to impress him. She was as innocent of any other intention as any girl could have been. It was jealousy that spoke; not scheme. And she was perfectly sincere in her depreciation of Jenny. She could not understand what it was that made the admiring look come into the faces of those who spoke to Jenny, nor why the unwilling admiration that started into her own heart should ever find a place there. She was baffled by character, and she was engaged in the common task of rearranging life to suit her own temperament.
They had been walking for some little distance now along deserted streets, the moon shining upon them, their steps softly echoing, and Emmy’s arm as warm as toast. It was like a real lover’s walk, she could not help thinking, half in the shadow and wholly in the stillness of the quiet streets. She felt very contented; and with her long account of Jenny already uttered, and her tough body already reanimated by the walk, Emmy was at leisure to let her mind wander among sweeter things. There was love, for example, to think about; and when she glanced sideways Alf’s shoulder seemed such a little distance from her cheek. And his hand was lightly clasping her wrist. A strong hand, was Alf’s, with a broad thumb and big capable fingers. She could see it in the moonlight, and she had suddenly an extraordinary longing to press her cheek against the back of Alf’s hand. She did not want any silly nonsense, she told herself; and the tears came into her eyes, and her nose seemed pinched and tickling with the cold at the mere idea of any nonsense; but she could not help longing with the most intense longing to press her cheek against the back of Alf’s hand. That was all. She wanted nothing more. But that desire thrilled her. She felt that if it might be granted she would be content, altogether happy. She wanted so little!
And as if Alf too had been thinking of somebody nearer to him than Jenny, he began: