BUT as many as received Him (Christ), to them gave He power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on His name.
John 1:12.
See! you are to receive a personal Saviour, not work up some special feeling.
If you are waiting for the feeling that an earnest working Christian has, we would have you note, that feeling is the “fruit,” not the “root” of salvation. A feeling of joy, peace, and rest comes, because we “trust” in Christ, “confess” Him as our Savior, “defend” His cause, and try to “obey” Him.
AND we are His witnesses of these things; and so is also the Holy Ghost, whom God hath glven to them that obey Him.
Acts 5:32.
It is to those that “obey Him” that the blessing is given—Repentance is doing what God commands you to do, whether you feel like doing it or not, and the feeling follows as you seek to do God’s will -—
BUT the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith.
Galatians 5:22.
Never be guided by the experiences of some one else, but by God’s Word.