(One of the scholarly guests, falls down intoxicated and goes with gypsies in the Maryin Woods.)
A period of unbelief in God. Essential to write how the New Testament had affected him. He agrees with the Gospel.
The chief thing meantime is his own I and his interests. Philosophical questions engage him in so far as they touch him.
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Lambert.
The lame girl: and I will tell how you said that you will be a king (or something ludicrous).
—He wounds her for this—
| Lambert and he—a complete picture of depravity. But Lambert is intoxicated with it and finds nothing higher than this. National levity. | Of what does he speak with the lame girl? Of all his dreams— |
| But he plunges into debauchery with an irresistible desire, but also with fear. The hollowness, dirt, and absurdity of immorality astonish him. He gives it all up and after terrible crimes he denounces himself with bitterness. | When I am grown up, I shall marry not you. So that it is not necessary to say he dreamt of this or that, but he went to the lame girl and said to her this or that. Of what he will be and of money. He beat her because the money did not increase. |
| He talked to her about the reading of Karamzin, tales, etc. He was taught French and German by the young lady, the old, etc. They went for their lessons to other children (there they made fun of him). | |
| Because the lame girl did not flare into a passion for Karamzin—he beat her. | |
| He knew the whole Bible—he told her. | |
| —The history of the world—but was weak in geography. | |
| (Dreams of travels, Kul and the lame girl.) They read novels.—He is highly developed and knows a great deal about many things. He knows Gogol and Pushkin. He never pretends tenderness for the lame girl until the time when he carried her in his arms.— | He meets Umnov who proves that he knows more than he. Coming home he tells the lame girl that Umnov is a fool and knows nothing and gave the lame girl a slight beating; after that he pays great attention to Umnov. |
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Do it—cut me off, I don’t want you to study together with my children.