I found it when the two chauffeurs recommenced their old story:
"Oh! our machine—how it is being riddled!"
"You," I said to him, "you sicken me with your machine. I'll wager that there is nothing the matter with it. Go and see and we'll find out for certain! It is not an order that I give you, but only that when the question is settled in your mind, you will leave us in peace——"
The cannonade grew worse at this moment and there was a literal downpour of shells in the village——
"You are not going? Then I'm going myself—and at least I will not have to listen to you any longer——"
I started toward the stairs when I heard LeBlond's voice in back of me, which said:
"You are crazy—you have vowed to get killed—it is suicide——"
I looked him in the eyes, to the depth of his soul, and murmured:
"I've got to—I want to go. Stay here!"
I went out. Nothing was said, but all looked at me, stupefied——