“Pooh!” said Velo, sneering. “I guess not! Why should he? He knows a thing or two and you will find it out some day. Why, nobody does anything for anybody unless they get paid for it somehow or other!”
“Oh, say,” said Zaidos, getting up and striking one clenched fist violently into the other, “I wouldn’t have your little bit of a soul for anything on earth! I wouldn’t have your mean, little bit of a suspicious, ungenerous mind! I hate to remind a fellow like you of anything so fine, but how about my father? What pay, pay, mind you, did he ever get for taking care of you? What did he ever get for starting that colony of sick people up on the mountain back of his hunting lodge, with a doctor right there, and a nurse or two paid by father? Do you suppose it made him feel good to see them tottering all over the preserve where he could no longer shoot, for fear of hitting some of the poor wretches?”
“No,” agreed Velo, “he didn’t get a thing out of all that, and I always thought that colony for the sick was the silliest thing I ever heard of. I’ll tell you right now when I get hold of things—” he caught himself up quickly. “I mean, of course, when you get hold of things, if you do as I would do, you will send those people packing back to their slums as fast as they can go. As far as his doing for me, why, I’m one of the family and he sort of had to. It is a duty. Besides, do you suppose it was very much fun sticking around that house, quiet as the grave, nothing going on, no one coming to see your father but old, grey-headed men and women forever fixing up charities?”
“That’s all right,” said Zaidos. “Do you know what I am going to do as soon as I get out of this? I’m going to cut right back to America and study as hard as I can. Then as soon as the war is over, I will come back here and straighten everything up. I will of course keep the title. You can’t give that away, and I wouldn’t want to. I’m proud of my name. It is an honorable one and it has been kept clean by the men before me; but I mean to give Greece everything I can turn into money. Then I’ll take enough to start me, go back to America again, and cut out a career for myself. I’m going to be a doctor and as good a doctor as ever lived if study will do it. That’s the monument I mean to give my father and my mother.”
He gave a jerk of the head toward Velo, who sat upright before him.
“How does that strike you, old top?” he asked and climbed down into the First Aid pit.
Left alone, Velo sat thinking. Then he rolled over on his face and beat the earth with his fists. Once more the films flew along, in the moving picture of his mind. He saw the wealth of the Zaidos house—gold, gold! a stream of gold flowing and flowing away from him! He saw the bright lights, the dancing, drinking, all the carousels he had so often dreamed of, slipping out of his grasp. What possible hope could a fellow like himself have of keeping on the right side of anyone like Zaidos? He smiled when he thought what Zaidos would say if he could know or guess what Velo’s life had been. What would he do if he ever found out how he had treated Zaidos’ long suffering father! And Velo did not try to deceive himself. He knew perfectly well that back there in Saloniki, there were people who would jump at a chance to get even with him, and who would give Zaidos an account of meanness and wrong-doing that would cause him to kick Velo out of the house.
Velo began to hate himself for the uncertainty in putting off what to him was a disagreeable necessity. Once more he went over the situation. It seemed as though he had gone over it a dozen times, a million times. It all ended at the blank wall which was Zaidos. Zaidos must be removed.
Now it is a well-known fact that we are what our thoughts make us. Our minds are like our houses, our homes. We do not have to entertain unwelcome guests. We do not have to invite them there. It may be that we feel obliged to treat everyone whom we meet at our games or in school or at work with common politeness. No matter how we despise a man, we can’t very well go up to him in the street and say, “Here, I don’t like your style,” and proceed to knock him out with a good right-hander. Naturally it won’t do. But we need not give the bounder the freedom of our homes. So with our thoughts. It is only when we bring them in and grow intimate with them, and make them part of ourselves that they begin to harm us.
Velo, too evil and too lazy to close the door of his mind on common thoughts and low desires, had grown more and more like his unworthy guests. And now instead of kicking the whole mob into the outer darkness, he lay there, face down, listening to their evil whispers.