“I tell you, Grant,” he said once, “I was never so cruel to those I treated worst. There’s nothing in the Persian hells, which beat all the rest, to come up to what I go through for want of my comfort. Promise to give it me, and I will tell you where to find some.”
As often as Donal refused he would break out in a torrent of curses, then lie still for a space.
“How do you think you will do without it,” Donal once rejoined, “when you find yourself bodiless in the other world?”
“I’m not there yet! When that comes, it will be under new conditions, if not unconditioned altogether. We’ll take the world we have. So, my dear boy, just go and get me what I want. There are the keys!”
“I dare not.”
“You wish to kill me!”
“I wouldn’t keep you alive to eat opium. I have other work than that. Not a finger would I move to save a life for such a life. But I would willingly risk my own to make you able to do without it. There would be some good in that!”
“Oh, damn your preaching!”
But the force of the habit abated a little. Now and then it seemed to return as strong as ever, but the fit went off again. His sufferings plainly decreased.
The doctor, having little yet of a practice, was able to be with him several hours every day, so that Donal could lie down. As he grew better, Davie, or mistress Brookes, or lady Arctura would sit with him. But Donal was never farther off than the next room. The earl’s madness was the worst of any, a moral madness: it could not fail to affect the brain, but had not yet put him beyond his own control. Repeatedly had Donal been on the verge of using force to restrain him, but had not yet found himself absolutely compelled to do so: fearless of him, he postponed it always to the very last, and the last had not yet arrived.