“Because you find you have not the courage?”
“For what?”
“To confess that you were under bad influence, and were not the Margaret I can make of you. Put that aside. If you remain as you are, think of the snares. If you marry one you despise, look at the pit. Yes; you will be mine! Half my love of my country and my profession is love of you. Margaret is fire in my blood. I used to pray for opportunities, that Margaret might hear of me. I knew that gallant actions touched her; I would have fallen gladly; I was sure her heart would leap when she heard of me. Let it beat against mine. Speak!”
“I will,” said Mrs. Lovell, and she suppressed the throbs of her bosom. Her voice was harsh and her face bloodless. “How much money have you, Percy?”
This sudden sluicing of cold water on his heat of passion petrified him.
“Money,” he said, with a strange frigid scrutiny of her features. As in the flash of a mirror, he beheld her bony, worn, sordid, unacceptable. But he was fain to admit it to be an eminently proper demand for enlightenment.
He said deliberately, “I possess an income of five hundred a year, extraneous, and in addition to my pay as major in Her Majesty's service.”
Then he paused, and the silence was like a growing chasm between them.
She broke it by saying, “Have you any expectations?”
This was crueller still, though no longer astonishing. He complained in his heart merely that her voice had become so unpleasant.