“Home, heaven, and mother!” said Rollins with a gasp. “I didn’t think even she would be as game as that. Well, I am sorry—sorry. Damn the whole business of life, anyhow.”
Helena rode rapidly through the forest, taking a short cut by trail to the fern grove above the cañon. She came upon it after an hour’s hard riding. She noted that it was almost circular in form, irregularly outlined by the redwoods. The stiff and feather tops were rustling in a soft breeze and glinted with the younger shades of green. She thought that she had never seen the sky so blue, the sun so golden. The trees were singing high above. Occasionally one branch creaked upon another discordantly.
She tethered her horse and went in among the ferns. When they closed above her head, and the green twilight was about her, she felt gratefully that she was beyond the eye of man, hidden even from the redwoods, which, she had a fancy, were human and wise.
She sat down on the stone and cried. Tears did not come easily to her; she was not a lightly emotional woman. To-day she abandoned herself to a passion of grief which thrilled her nerves and cramped her fingers. It was a passion which accumulated depth and strength instead of dissipating itself, and it was an hour before she was exhausted. The storm brought no relief, as April showers do to most women. She felt heavy and blunt, and knew that the third stage would be the first. She was conscious of one other thing only: that she understood Clive better than she had ever done before, and that her sympathy was as strong for him as for herself.
Suddenly she sprang to her feet and faced the point of the fern-wood where she had made entrance. The tears dried under the rush of blood.
“Owin!” she cried. “Owin!”
She strained her head forward, then drew back slowly. There was not a sound in the forest. Her lips fell apart. “Owin!” she gasped. She shook from head to foot. He had a quick strong step. She heard it now with a sub-consciousness of which she had never been cognizant before. But it made no sound in her ears.
Then she sank back against the ferns, bending them with her weight, closing her eyes. The spiritual part within her seemed to become clearly defined. Something touched and passed it. There was a moment of promise, rather than of ecstasy, then of peace.
She opened her eyes. “Owin,” she whispered. But she was alone.
She went out of the ferns and mounted her horse, and rode rapidly homeward. As she turned the corner of Casa Norte she heard the telephone bell ring violently. A groom met her and lifted her from the horse. She walked down the garden toward the door. Her aunt entered the office. Helena paused outside of the window to listen to the ridiculous one-sided conversation of the telephone.