Consuming anger lighted up Gerald’s face, his voice trembled with intensity of feeling, his vehemence now and then by jerks lifted his heels off the floor. “He is not properly a man at all,” he went on to characterize his old schoolmate; “he is just an insect en grand. He satisfies his instincts precisely as an insectivorous insect does–the rest are there to furnish something to his life. Nothing else, he knows nothing outside. Now that you have offended him he probably won’t do you any great harm. He’s not a devil, and the world he lives in does not tolerate anything very black. He’d injure himself in trying to injure you. But he’ll do you what harm he easily and safely can. He’s nothing big, he could do nothing big, he hasn’t a passion in him. He’s like this: from the moment he had ceased to get any good of frequenting your house, even if you had not done the smallest thing to vex him, he would pass on a bit of gossip harmful to you for the simple glory of appearing for one moment a little better informed than the rest. No more than that. He would be capable of that; he wouldn’t even have to hate you. For Charlie Hunt, as Leslie once perspicaciously said–Charlie Hunt has no real inside!”
373Both women sat staring at Gerald, impressed by his heat. When he stopped, they continued for a minute in blank silence, revolving his words and readjusting their estimates, while their eyes traveled up and down, up and down the room, drawn after his figure that wrathily paced the floor.
“How do you suppose he found out about the black crow? For I’m perfectly sure he didn’t know me at the time,” said Aurora presently.
“That might easily enough happen in some roundabout way,” said Estelle, “as long as Italo and Clotilde both knew it. They might let the cat out of the bag without intending to. He talks so much. Never knew such a talker. But what I want to know is how he knew your name was Barton.”
“I’ve told you what I think. He’s heard you call me Nell. Tom, too, called me Nell. That may have given him the hint. Then he simply opened Iona Allen’s letter and read it. Something was in it, no doubt, that enabled him to put two and two together. Perhaps the name Bewick. Iona would have heard of that. She would write to say now I’d climbed out of poverty and hard work she knew I wouldn’t mind lending a hand to an old friend not so fortunate. Something like that. She’d be sure to whine and beg. And Charlie Hunt, little bunch of meanness! would imagine he could hold over me the fact that I was poor once and what he would think low in the scale, because he thought I’d be ashamed of it. But no such thing. If I changed my name coming here, it wasn’t on any such account as that. I’m gladder than ever now that I told Mrs. Foss all about it. I did, Gerald, quite soon after we first came, and she said, though it was in a way a mistake, 374she didn’t see any real harm in it. As long as I’d begun that way, she said, better not make a sensation by changing back or saying anything about it. She thought my reasons were very natural. It wasn’t as if I were misleading anybody, or anybody were losing money by me. I’d have told you too, Gerald, in a minute, as far as wanting just to conceal anything goes. But Gerald and I”–she seemed to place the matter before an invisible judge and jury–“never talk together of ugly things, do we, Gerald? He’s more delicate-minded by a good deal than I am. With him particularly, though we’ve been such intimate friends, I shrank from it. There’s not much poetry about me, I know that, but there’d be even less if I had to have it known all I’ve been through. And since the first of our association we’ve always lived in a sweet sort of world, haven’t we, Gerald? I’d be ready, just the same, to tell you the whole story any moment you wanted to hear....”
At Gerald’s swift instinctive gesture, she went on without further considering the proposition she had made. “As I said before, I don’t know what my own real front-door name is. I was born Goodwin. I married Barton, but Barton wasn’t Jim’s real name. Aurora Hawthorne is what I called myself when we were young ones and played ladies, Hat and I. I came over here to cut loose from all the bothers that had made the last year in Denver a nightmare. I didn’t want to be connected with that dirty mess any more in anybody’s mind or my own. I wanted it to be like taking a bath and starting new, feeling clean. Then, if I was Aurora Hawthorne, Hattie had to be Estelle Madison, which was her name in our old play-days. Neither of us thought of anything when we planned it but its being a grand lark. And at first, in hotels, what 375did it matter? But since we’ve been here and had friends, we’ve felt sorry more than once, because it seemed like telling a lie. And then we were afraid of things that might come up–just like this that has, in fact. But there wasn’t anything to do about it. Because if we confessed now most anybody would think our reason for changing names must have been something disgraceful, just as it happens if a person who kills another by accident goes and hides the corpse, everybody takes it for granted it was murder. So, if Charlie Hunt tells–”
“I’m not nearly as much afraid of his telling that you are here under an assumed name,” said Estelle, “as that you were the black crow, and it getting to the ears of Antonia and Co.”
“Well, what could they do?”
“Spoil Florence for us pretty thoroughly, I’m afraid, Nell.”
“Oh, nonsense!” cried Aurora, but after a moment added in a tone of lessened assurance, “Bother!” and after another moment burst forth, with one hand clapped to her curly front hair: “To think that Tom was here yesterday, and this had to happen to-day, when he’s half-way to Paris! I wish he hadn’t gone. I wish I had him here to back me up.”