Charley touched him on the shoulder. “Jo—poor Jo, my friend!” he said. Jo raised his eyes, red with an unnatural fire, deep with gratitude.
“As I sit at my dinner, with the sun shining and the woods green and glad, and all the world gay, I have see what happened all over again. I have see his strong hands; his bad face laugh at my words; I have see him raise his riding-whip and cut me across the head. I have see him stagger and fall from the blows I give him with the knife—the knife which never was found—why, I not know, for I throw it on the ground beside him! There, as I sit in the open day, a thousand times I have see him shiver and fall, staring, staring at me as if he see a dreadful thing. Then I stand up again and strike at him—at his ghost!—as I did that day in the woods. Again I see him lie in his blood, straight and white—so large, so handsome, so still! I have shed tears—but what are tears! Blind with tears I have call out for the devils of hell to take me with them. I have call on God to give me death. I have prayed, and I have cursed. Twice I have travelled to the grave where he lies. I have knelt there and have beg him to tell the truth to God, and say that he torture me till I kill him. I have beg him to forgive me and to haunt me no more with his bad face. But never—never—never—have I one quiet hour until you come, M’sieu’; nor any joy in my heart till I tell you the black truth—M’sieu’! M’sieu!”
He buried his face between Charley’s feet, and held them with his hands.
Charley laid a hand on the shaggy head as though it were that of a child. “Be still—be still, Jo,” he said gently.
Since that night of St. Jean Baptiste’s festival, no word of the past, of the time when Charley turned aside the revanche of justice from a man called Joseph Nadeau, had been spoken between them. Out of the delirium of his drunken trance had come Charley’s recognition of the man he knew now as Jo Portugais. But the recognition had been sent again into the obscurity whence it came, and had not been mentioned since. To outward seeming they had gone on as before. As Charley saw the knotted brows, the staring eyes, the clinched hands, the figure of the woodsman rigid in its agony of remorse, he said to himself: “What right had I to save this man’s life? To have paid for his crime would have been easier for him. I knew he was guilty. Perhaps it was my duty to see that every condition, to the last shade of the law, was satisfied, but was it justice to the poor devil himself? There he sits with a load on him that weighs him down every hour of his life. I called him back; I gave him life; but I gave him memory and remorse, and the ghosts that haunt him: the voice in his ear, the touch on his arm, the some one that is ‘waiting—waiting—waiting!’ That is what I did, and that is what the brother of the Cure did for me. He drew me back. He knew I was a drunkard, but he drew me back. I might have been a murderer like Portugais. The world says I was a thief, and a thief I am until I prove to the world I am innocent—and wreck three lives! How much of Jo’s guilt is guilt? How much remorse should a man suffer to pay the debt of a life? If the law is an eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth, how much hourly remorse and torture, such as Jo’s, should balance the eye or the tooth or the life? I wonder, now!”
He leaned over, and, helping Jo to his feet, gently forced him down upon a bench near. “All right, Jo, my friend,” he said. “I understand. We’ll drink the gall together.”
They sat and looked at each other in silence.
At length Charley leaned over and touched Jo on the shoulder.
“Why did you want to save yourself?” he said.
At that instant there was a knock at the door, and a voice said: “Monsieur!—Monsieur!”