“Why did you not come to the wedding? She was your cousin. People asked where you were. You knew I was going.”
“Did you need me?” he asked quietly, and his eyes involuntarily swept to the place where he had seen the heliotrope and scarlet make a glow of colour on the other side of the square. “You were not alone.”
She misunderstood him. Her mind had been overwrought, and she caught insinuation in his voice. “You mean Tom Fairing!” Her eyes blazed. “You are quite right—I did not need you. Tom Fairing is a man that all the world trusts save you.”
“Kathleen!” The words were almost a cry. “For God’s sake! I have never thought of ‘trusting’ men where you are concerned. I believe in no man”—his voice had a sharp bitterness, though his face was smooth and unemotional—“but I trust you, and believe in you. Yes, upon my soul and honour, Kathleen.”
As he spoke she turned quickly and stepped towards the window, an involuntary movement of agitation. He had touched a chord. But even as she reached the window and glanced down to the hot, dusty street, she heard a loud voice below, a reckless, ribald sort of voice, calling to some one to, “Come and have a drink.”
“Billy!” she said involuntarily, and looked down, then shrank back quickly. She turned swiftly on her husband. “Your soul and honour, Charley!” she said slowly. “Look at what you’ve made of Billy! Look at the company he keeps—John Brown, who hasn’t even decency enough to keep away from the place he disgraced. Billy is always with him. You ruined John Brown, with your dissipation and your sneers at religion and your-’I-wonder-nows!’ Of what use have you been, Charley? Of what use to anyone in the world? You think of nothing but eating, and drinking, and playing the fop.”
He glanced down involuntarily, and carefully flicked some cigarette-ash from his waistcoat. The action arrested her speech for a moment, and then, with a little shudder, she continued: “The best they can say of you is, ‘There goes Charley Steele!’”
“And the worst?” he asked. He was almost smiling now, for he admired her anger, her scorn. He knew it was deserved, and he had no idea of making any defence. He had said all in that instant’s cry, “Kathleen!”—that one awakening feeling of his life so far. She had congealed the word on his lips by her scorn, and now he was his old debonair, dissipated self, with the impertinent monocle in his eye and a jest upon his tongue.
“Do you want to know the worst they say?” she asked, growing pale to the lips. “Go and stand behind the door of Jolicoeur’s saloon. Go to any street corner, and listen. Do you think I don’t know what they say? Do you think the world doesn’t talk about the company you keep? Haven’t I seen you going into Jolicoeur’s saloon when I was walking on the other side of the street? Do you think that all the world, and I among the rest, are blind? Oh, you fop, you fool, you have ruined my brother, you have ruined my life, and I hate and despise you for a cold-blooded, selfish coward!”
He made a deprecating gesture and stared—a look of most curious inquiry. They had been married for five years, and during that time they had never been anything but persistently courteous to each other. He had never on any occasion seen her face change colour, or her manner show chagrin or emotion. Stately and cold and polite, she had fairly met his ceaseless foppery and preciseness of manner. But people had said of her, “Poor Kathleen Steele!” for her spotless name stood sharply off from his negligence and dissipation. They called her “Poor Kathleen Steele!” in sympathy, though they knew that she had not resisted marriage with the well-to-do Charley Steele, while loving a poor captain in the Royal Fusileers. She preserved social sympathy by a perfect outward decorum, though the man of the scarlet coat remained in the town and haunted the places where she appeared, and though the eyes of the censorious world were watching expectantly. No voice was raised against her. Her cold beauty held the admiration of all women, for she was not eager for men’s company, and she kept her poise even with the man in scarlet near her, glacially complacent, beautifully still, disconcertingly emotionless. They did not know that the poise with her was to an extent as much a pose as Charley’s manner was to him.