“Monsieur, I have been selfish. I asked myself to breakfast with you, yet, while I love the new experience, I will deny myself in this. You shall breakfast with me, as you pass to your new lodgings. You must not say no,” he added, as though we were in some salon. “I have a sleigh here at the door, and a fellow has already gone to fan my kitchen fires and forage for the table. Come,” he went on, “let me help you with your cloak.”
He threw my cloak around me, and turned towards the door. I had not spoken a word, for what with weakness, the announcement that I was to have new lodgings, and the sudden change in my affairs, I was like a child walking in its sleep. I could do no more than bow to him and force a smile, which must have told more than aught else of my state, for he stepped to my side and offered me his arm. I drew back from that with thanks, for I felt a quick hatred of myself that I should take favours of the man who had moved for my destruction, and to steal from me my promised wife. Yet it was my duty to live if I could, to escape if that were possible, to use every means to foil my enemies. It was all a game; why should I not accept advances at my enemy’s hands, and match dissimulation with dissimulation?
When I refused his arm, he smiled comically, and raised his shoulders in deprecation.
“You forget your dignity, monsieur,” I said presently as we walked on, Gabord meeting us and lighting us through the passages; “you voted me a villain, a spy, at my trial!”
“Technically and publicly, you are a spy, a vulgar criminal,” he replied; “privately, you are a foolish, blundering gentleman.”
“A soldier, also, you will admit, who keeps his compact with his enemy.”
“Otherwise we should not breakfast together this morning,” he answered. “What difference would it make to this government if our private matter had been dragged in? Technically, you still would have been the spy. But I will say this, monsieur, to me you are a man better worth torture than death.”
“Do you ever stop to think of how this may end for you?” I asked quietly.
He seemed pleased with the question. “I have thought it might be interesting,” he answered; “else, as I said, you should long ago have left this naughty world. Is it in your mind that we shall cross swords one day?”
“I feel it in my bones,” said I, “that I shall kill you.”