“And what do you think of it all?”
She felt as though something was crushing her heart within its grasp, and her eyes took on a new look of pain. “I did not read the papers,” she answered quietly.
“I saw them in your fingers. What creatures women are—so dishonourable in little things,” he said ironically.
She laid a hand on his. “I did not read them, Harry,” she urged.
He smiled and patted her arm. “There, there, it doesn’t matter,” he laughed. He watched her narrowly. “It matters greatly,” she answered gently, though his words had cut her like a knife. “I did not read the papers. I only saw the word ‘Cyprus’ on the first paper, and I pushed it over the paper which had the word ‘Egypt’ on it ‘Egypt’ and ‘Claridge,’ lest I should read it. I did not wish to read it. I am not dishonourable, Harry.”
He had hurt her more than he had ever done; and only the great matter at stake had prevented the lesser part of her from bursting forth in indignation, from saying things which she did not wish to say. She had given him devotion—such devotion, such self-effacement in his career as few women ever gave. Her wealth—that was so little in comparison with the richness of her nature—had been his; and yet his vast egotism took it all as his right, and she was repaid in a kind of tyranny, the more galling and cruel because it was wielded by a man of intellect and culture, and ancient name and tradition. If he had been warned that he was losing his wife’s love, he would have scouted the idea, his self-assurance was so strong, his vanity complete. If, however, he had been told that another man was thinking of his wife, he would have believed it, as he believed now that David had done; and he cherished that belief, and let resentment grow. He was the Earl of Eglington, and no matter what reputation David had reached, he was still a member of a Quaker trader’s family, with an origin slightly touched with scandal. Another resentment, however, was steadily rising in him. It galled him that Hylda should take so powerful an interest in David’s work in Egypt; and he knew now that she had always done so. It did not ease his vexed spirit to know that thousands of others of his fellow-countrymen did the same. They might do so, but she was his wife, and his own work was the sun round which her mind and interest should revolve.
“Why should you be so keen about Egypt and Claridge Pasha?” he said to her now.
Her face hardened a little. Had he the right to torture her so? To suspect her? She could read it in his eyes. Her conscience was clear. She was no man’s slave. She would not be any man’s slave. She was master of her own soul. What right had he to catechise her—as though she were a servant or a criminal? But she checked the answer on her tongue, because she was hurt deeper than words could express, and she said, composedly:
“I have here a letter from my cousin Lacey, who is with Claridge Pasha. It has news of him, of events in the Soudan. He had fever, there was to be a fight, and I wished to know if you had any later news. I thought that document there might contain news, but I did not read it. I realised that it was not yours, that it belonged to the Government, that I had no right. Perhaps you will tell me if you have news. Will you?” She leaned against the table wearily, holding her letter.
“Let me read your letter first,” he said wilfully.