“I was dog-tired,” his companion returned, “when I arrived, and it’s this wild hunt for rest that takes all the life out of me. The fact is, Strether—and it’s a comfort to have you here at last to say it to; though I don’t know, after all, that I’ve really waited; I’ve told it to people I’ve met in the cars—the fact is, such a country as this ain’t my kind of country anyway. There ain’t a country I’ve seen over here that does seem my kind. Oh I don’t say but what there are plenty of pretty places and remarkable old things; but the trouble is that I don’t seem to feel anywhere in tune. That’s one of the reasons why I suppose I’ve gained so little. I haven’t had the first sign of that lift I was led to expect.” With this he broke out more earnestly. “Look here—I want to go back.”
His eyes were all attached to Strether’s now, for he was one of the men who fully face you when they talk of themselves. This enabled his friend to look at him hard and immediately to appear to the highest advantage in his eyes by doing so. “That’s a genial thing to say to a fellow who has come out on purpose to meet you!”
Nothing could have been finer, on this, than Waymarsh’s sombre glow. “Have you come out on purpose?”
“Well—very largely.”
“I thought from the way you wrote there was something back of it.”
Strether hesitated. “Back of my desire to be with you?”
“Back of your prostration.”
Strether, with a smile made more dim by a certain consciousness, shook his head. “There are all the causes of it!”
“And no particular cause that seemed most to drive you?”
Our friend could at last conscientiously answer. “Yes. One. There is a matter that has had much to do with my coming out.”