At the bottom of the steps, he held the rail, and steadied himself. Twice he faltered. His face was as white as his surplice. He closed his eyes, and threw back his head, turning his face heavenward; his lips parted, and he seemed to be on the verge of fainting and falling backward.
She cried out again, and pressed her face close to the window. Her cry must have penetrated this time, for he looked around in a dazed fashion, as one who heard a voice from afar. It seemed to stimulate him. With one hand on his heart and the other gripping his Bible, he mounted the steps unsteadily. He spread out the Book on the red cushion, and read the text.
“Confess your faults one to another and pray one for another that ye may be healed.”
The woman, listening outside the window, could not endure the suspense. She entered the church by a side door, and listened not far from the pulpit steps. Her husband’s voice rang out amid a breathless silence, as he repeated his text.
“Confess your faults one to another and pray one for another that ye may be healed.” 325
“Brethren, I stand before you to-night for the last time.” A gasp and a murmur ran through the congregation, followed by an awed silence. “I am here to confess my sins, because I am unworthy to hold the sacred office, because for weeks past my life has been a living lie. At each service, I have mounted the steps of this pulpit, and have preached to you of sin and its atonement, and all the while my heart was sore, and my conscience eating into it like a canker.
“I am a husband and a father, like many of you here, with the love of wife and children strong in my breast. Alas! it has been stronger than my love for God. I have succumbed to the lusts of the flesh, and have listened to the voice of the devil. I come not to cry aloud unto you, ‘A woman tempted me and I fell!’ I blame no one but myself. The voice of the tempter spoke to me in devious ways, and I listened.”
The preacher paused, and rested silent for a long time. But, at last, he spoke again, hesitatingly:
“You have doubtless heard of the terrible charge made against my brave son.”
There was a murmur, a shuffling of feet, and a turning of heads; eyes looking into eyes, saying, “Ah, I told you so.”