And the prayer in her eyes overcame my piety; I felt that for her I would go, not through fire and water only, but into hell itself.
And yet it seemed to me a great pity, for my mother and all my teachers were sure that I had in me the making of something remarkable.
13
I was quit of Zerach Kneip and his long finger-nail, but I was not so much the better off.
I was sixteen years old. The match-mongers were already catching at my mother's skirts, and I preserved the childish habit of collecting wax off the Shool table on the Day of Atonement and secretly moulding it in Cheder under the table.
The beadle hated me for this with a deadly hatred, and I was well served out for it besides.
"What have you got there?" asks Reb Yozel.
I am wool-gathering at the moment and lay my whole hand on the Gemoreh, wax on all the five fingers.
Reb Yozel has grown pale with anger. He opens the drawer, takes out a piece of thin string, and binds together my two thumbs, but so tight, a pang goes through me.
That was only the beginning. He went to the broom and deliberately chose and pulled out a thin, flexible twig. With this twig he whipped me over my tied hands—for how long? It seemed to me forever. And strange to say, I took the pain in good part; I felt sure God had sent it me that I might repent of my sin and give up going to the teacher.