Daniel called down to know if his breakfast was ready; nobody answered. Thereupon he went to the kitchen, and got himself a bottle of milk and a loaf of bread. Philippina came in a little later. Her hair looked as though a hurricane had struck it; she was in her worst humour. She snarled at Daniel, asking him why in the name of God he couldn’t wait till the coffee had been boiled.
“Leave me in peace, Philippina,” he said, “I need peace.”
“Peace!” she roared, “peace, the same old story: you want peace!” She threw a wild, contemptuous glance at the open chest containing Daniel’s scores, leaned against the table, put the tips of her dirty fingers on the score he was then studying, and shrieked: “There is the cause of the whole malheur! The whole malheur, I say, comes from this damned note-smearing of yours! The idea of a man settin’ down and dabbing them pot-hooks on good white paper, day after day, year in and year out! What does it all mean? Tell me! While you’re doin’ it, everything else is moving—like a crab, backwards. Jesus, you’re a man, and yet you spend your time at that kind of stuff! I’d be ashamed to admit it.”
Not prepared for this enigmatic outburst of anger and hate, Daniel looked at Philippina utterly dazed. “Get out of here,” he cried indignantly. “Get out of here, I say,” and pointed to the door.
She got out. “The damned dabbery!” she bellowed with reinforced maliciousness.
From ten to twelve, Daniel had to lecture at the conservatory. His heart beat violently, though he was unable to explain his excitement. It was more than a foreboding: he felt as if he had heard a piece of terribly bad news and the real nature of it had slipped his memory.
He did not go home for luncheon; he ate in the café at the Carthusian Gate. Then he took a long walk out over the fields and meadows. It had stopped raining, and the brisk wind refreshed him. He stood for a long while on the banks of the canal, and watched some men piling bricks at a brick-kiln. From time to time he took a piece of paper from his pocket, and wrote something on it with his pencil: it was notes.
Once he wrote alongside of a motif: “Farewell, my music!” His eyes were filled with dreadful tears.
He returned to the city just as the sun was setting; it looked like a huge ball of fire in the west. The sky shone out between two great black clouds like the forge of a smithy. He could not help but think of Eleanore.
He entered his living room, and paced back and forth. Philippina came in, and asked him whether she should warm up his soup for him. Her unnatural, singing tone attracted his attention; he looked at her very closely.