Jesus, fulfil thy gracious word,
For thy own mercy’s sake.”
Sunday 31. I spent the morning in reading the eight last chapters of Romans, and Mr. Wesley’s notes upon them. Indeed I think they are a most beautiful part of the scripture. O that they and every other part of that holy book may be written upon my heart.
Sunday, April 7. Was Easter-day. I was prevented from hearing the sermon by a violent tooth-ach. O how many pains are we subject to while in this mortal life! But when this mortal shall put on immortality, what a glorious change shall we undergo? Lord, let this change pass upon me, and to that end let me now rise from a death of sin unto a life of righteousness.
“Thy resurrection’s power impart,
And rise triumphant in my heart.”
Thursday 11. At noon, we had the pleasure of the Rev. Mr. John Wesley’s company to dinner; and in the evening he preached on Jeremiah viii. 22. Is there no balm in Gilead, &c. His conversation was very edifying, and God blest it to my poor soul.
Friday 12. At five in the morning, Mr. Wesley preached on Psalms lxxxiv. 1. How amiable are thy tabernacles, O Lord of hosts. At night we took leave of him, and of my uncle, aunt, and Mrs. L——. These at one in the morning set out for Liverpool, and he at five for Newcastle-upon-Tyne.
Sunday 14. I found my mind much oppressed with perplexing thoughts concerning my dear parents. But why, O my soul, dost thou suffer these anxious cares to oppress thy troubled breast? Is not the God who gave me these tender parents at liberty to take them from me? And is he not able to raise me up friends in their room? Besides, this is caring for the morrow. Is it not time enough to make myself uneasy when the trial comes, without anticipating what may never be? Then, O my soul, trust thou in God: for he will be the help of my countenance, and my God.
Saturday 20. I was all this day in a fretful frame, which I too much yielded to. O God, give me power over this, and every other easily besetting sin.